Rocd and soocd

I feel like I'm going through the same right now. Even addressing OCD means eventually I'll know the true answer and that scares me shitless. OCD seems to find new ways of attacking your relationship

when you mean stopped fighting the thoughts do you mean like with ERP or just like the maybe/maybe not thinking? i was suffering from severe so-ocd and rocd with my previous boyfriend of 3 years but i broke it off due to it feeling so intensified and made me uncomfortable around him due thoughts spiking, it almost felt like the reassurance of being in a relationship was holding me back, like i need to learn to trust myself and if i say im not gay then im not? but obviously my ocd likes to play tricks on me and I probably could have went about it many different ways

I'm not in a relationship but I've had soocd for 6 years and this year it got really bad so about a month ago I stopped figthing the thoughts. The anxiety went away almost completely and I was so hopeful but in the past few days I've been feeling like I truly am gay because I don't spiral anymore and the thoughts don't cause any anxiety, just sadness. I ve been crying about it so much but I also cant go back to fighting because I don't want to experience that level of anxiety again so I just feel defeated :(

Yes you just described my situation to a T, I never knew people felt the exact same. Ive stopped fighting them, and now I feel like I dont want anything to do with him. I believe Ive just gone numb from the overwhelming thoughts, and because I never got to enjoy moments and was in fight for flight for most of the time I feel like I dont have that connection to him anymore. And I think you do care, cause you're on here, you must be so tired. Give yourself compassion and time to love yourself and it will fall in place, and don't make any sudden decisions.

I have. I’ve tried to break up a couple of times and still get the feeling it’s “over”. The choice is yours to make, but I think you should push on in spite of the feeling. I’m starting to have some brighter moments, you will too. Our brains are trying to protect us from love. Think of your partner as someone you’d like to adventure with. Sex doesn’t matter, gender doesn’t matter, LOVE matters.