Cat-Mom
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- 3d
My Previous Post
Hi! I hate to be a bother, but I wanted to bring attention to my last post in hopes that some people could share thoughts/relate? Thanks!
Chicafreaka420Chicafreaka420
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- Yesterday
Following up bc my last comment was gargantuan hehe. But idk what the best thing to do is, bc sometimes my mind will try to convince me that I don’t need the medicine and it’s never helped, I don’t have ocd, it’s not a chemical imbalance, blah blah. Idk if you relate to that, but my partner, friends, and family all would attest to medication improving my life and mental health. When switching from Prozac to sertraline I had a horrible depressive episode, honestly a whole month leading up to that. My ocd worsens significantly with change and my partner just got a new job and moved and I have a year left of school so my mind went bonkersss about how “this isn’t going to work out” “he’s not the one for you anymore, you need to let him go and explore”. I’ve been on the same dose of Zoloft for like 3 weeks now and I can honestly say managing my thoughts has been a lot easier than before. That coupled with ERP ofc but my erp can be tricky. I’ve been looking for a new therapist through NOCD that is queer aligned but also understands the intersections of OCD types with genuine feelings
Cat-MomCat-Mom
- Date posted
- Yesterday
@Chicafreaka420 I love a long comment, lol! I definitely relate a little to the med doubts, as they were why I was trying to taper in the first place! But I truly think SSRIs are those things that you don’t realize how much they work until you reduce your dose. I just felt my baseline stress was higher (though I was functioning fine) and then my spiral happened and I literally lost my ability to be a person who could go to work without crying, do chores, and think about ANYTHING but my sexuality. I felt my thoughts were getting a lot easier to manage after I more than doubled my dose! But I unfortunately got some really bad news late last week about my mom’s health, and I’m attributing the inability to shake the thoughts for more hours of the day now to that. The thoughts can be so convincing, especially to someone who never felt quite like the fit neatly into a sexuality “box”. But because I can’t say definitely what would make me the most content, I’m choosing not to give it much thought at the moment, especially because what I have with my boyfriend is really nice and he’s been a rock for me :) How far is your partner from you now?
Chicafreaka420Chicafreaka420
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- 22h
He’s about an hour from me but I don’t have a car so I take the train to see him or he comes up to see me bc sometimes it’s like a 40 min drive. I’m sorry to hear about your moms health :( it’s exhausting when something completely separate happens but our brain convinces us to focus all attention on our obsessions. Hang in there 🧚🏼
Cat-MomCat-Mom
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- 20h
@Chicafreaka420 That’s tough :( it’s always harder to coordinate when someone is further away. Idk about you but I feel like sometimes my thoughts get worse when the person is not around, too Exactly, I’m just like even if this WAS the wrong relationship, it shouldn’t be what I’m focusing on right now
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