Health related OCD

Im feeling like im needing some support right now before i go down a spiraling path. I got some blood work done recently to figure somethings out. My hair hasn’t really been growing and I thought it might be a hormone problem. When I had my follow up with my provider it turns out some of my hormones were really out of whack. They could indicate PCOS or potentially a tumor on my adrenal gland. I’ve thought about it on and off ever since and although more blood work is being done I can’t help but fixate on how this could ruin my life. Like what if I have fertility issues? What if I have to get a big scary surgery, something goes wrong and I never wake up? What if I have the metabolic issues that come from PCOS and I’m more likely to have a heart attack or diabetes and die from one of those? I end up googling a lot over and over again, even if I already know the answer, because I want to feel safe, but the answers never make me feel safer. I also can’t tell if how I’m thinking about it is just how anyone else would think about it or if I’m having OCD thoughts. Again any support or gentle advice or comments would be greatly appreciated and help me out a lot.

GratitudeGirl

Date posted: Yesterday

Hey.. lets take this one step at a time.. first of all u dont know anything with certainty and that is why your OCD is freaking out. The good thing is u havent been given any diagnosis yet.. ur mind is thinking of the worst case scenario.. hormones being a bit here and there are normal especially for women.. searching for certainty is what OCD people do but try to name your OCD and say thanks but no thanks.. I totally can relate to some of your fears and spirals but trust me that is just worry that is baseless.. you will be able to get through this whatever it is.. and many times its not a big deal at all.. put ur worry to rest because u are stronger than u think.. u even went to the doctor in time to get blood work done.. if I have to be really honest even replying to this post makes me feel uncomfortable because many of your triggers are my triggers but I am in therapy and life is so lovely.. youre gonna come out of this spiral and make ur own rules.. OCD isnt true its fake thoughts.. sit with the uncertainty that is what Ive been learning.. OCD is stupid but ur better than it.. I believe in you

GratitudeGirl

Date posted: Yesterday

And your thoughts might be OCD because maybe someone without OCD wouldnt spiral this much but then again it doesnt matter unless u get diagnosed by a therapist but the main thing is those thoughts are controlling the way you think because you keep googling.. dont give it power.. if you get a random plant will you google and read about every single plant or would you specifically go to the plant store and ask them what it is? Thats a silly example but searching for a bunch of health questions when no one even told you what u have to do for your hormones is doing too much work.. allow urself time to relax because ur gonna be okay and hormones wont cause anything insane so I dont want to reassure u because that is what OCD feeds into but I promise.. putting away google will do u good

aubs<3

Date posted: Yesterday

@GratitudeGirl Thank you so much. This did help sooth me quite a bit. I am diagnosed but I haven’t had the chance to do a lot of work in therapy due to life events playing a bigger role in session. I just found this resource and I’m so thankful for it. I’m sorry for making you uncomfortable in anyway and again, thank you for your time ❤️

GratitudeGirl

Date posted: Yesterday

@aubs<3 No please dont say sorry ur helping me do exposure therapy for my ocd .. Im sorry about the stress of life thats making u overwhelmed.. u deserve the best.. what did they diagnose u with exactly? Was it the two options?

GratitudeGirl

Date posted: Yesterday

@GratitudeGirl Ohh u mean OCD diagnosis yeah.. if you can try therapy when it works for u itll be good.. there are also support groups on here in the middle tab if u have insurance and its easy try to join one of those as well.. if not then until u can do therapy try ur best to let ur mind think whatever and realize that its fake and not ur truth

aubs<3

Date posted: Yesterday

@GratitudeGirl Sorry I must have misunderstood your reply, I meant diagnosed with OCD. Unfortunately I think the road to get a solid answer on this whole medical thing will take a while. I’m just scared of being sick and the uncertainty and work that I will have to put in if I do have PCOS.

GratitudeGirl

Date posted: Yesterday

The surgery thing is so freaky and I can relate to those fears and it sucks to have that fear.. im sorry ur dealing with those thoughts

aubs<3

Date posted: Yesterday

@GratitudeGirl Yea no kidding. Big surgery’s are a huge fear for me. Even thought I know logically that most surgeries are very safe.

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