Pregnancy Ocd

i am starting professional therapy very soon but for now i need this to pacify me. i have an EXTREME horrendous fear of getting pregnant without knowing. for background, i have been dating this great guy for nearly two years and we’ve done everything but actually…have sex. im scared of it and he accepts that thankfully. yet…i have taken 4 pregnancy tests... i know. i looked back on my calendar and this has been happening for nearly a month straight so just think about how that treats my body haha. my main fear of how it happens is that he will have leftover semen and then finger me. i’ve dived DEEP into the biology and science of pregnancy and some of my brain understands like “you literally need to have sex to get pregnant” but the other half of my brain is like “mmm… but-“ and i feel horrible because it seems as though im not trusting of my boyfriend. i would love to take his word but theres always like a shallow doubt within me. anddd of course all the stress and anxiety delays my period even more!

Anonymous

Date posted: 17h

As a biology/science major the cells would’ve died well before it even entered you. It needs to be physical intercourse, because a cell needs a host to live. And as somebody that is currently pregnant you can most definitely tell you’re pregnant your body is different, change in hormones, change in taste buds. Your whole body is physically getting ready for a cell to live off of you. I’ve had the same thoughts when I was younger, like being injected with some but it’s scientifically not possible. It’s your ocd telling you otherwise because it wants you to panic about something that doesn’t even make sense. And abnormal periods are still normal and happens all time, sometimes skips months or 2 in one month. Completely normal, hopefully I could relive you some stress ocd attacks basic information all the time

lalalaIa

Date posted: 16h

@Anonymous thank u :) hearing this from a professional made me feel much better. it’s so weird, it’s like my brain knows that it’s impossible yet still chooses to believe something is wrong

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

@lalalaIa You can be 99% sure but your ocd will focus on that 1%. Glad I can help make sure to be kind to yourself.

lalalaIa

Date posted: 14h

@Anonymous i definitely feel like the 1%! are there any tactics you know to soothe my anxiety?

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

@lalalaIa Probably the basics, the maybe or maybe not. Or sitting with the uncertainty and no researching but it does take time if you feel like you need to research and you did don’t feel bad take that information and sit with it because now you know 100% but the anxiety comes back you have to tell yourself that you’re sticking with the facts and ignore it. Play a game, I love animal crossing, watch a movie or watch YouTube. Probably no social media until you fully forget the thought because sometimes social media triggers the ocd because you can still get information to fill the ocd. You gotta do things that take up attention, and you honestly have to trust yourself the biggest thing with ocd is not trusting yourself. Once you can sit with that anxiety it will lower because it doesn’t have anything to attack. Let me know if you want to hear more.

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

@Anonymous I also love space, if I do get on Tik tok. It’s 100% space videos or something with biology simply because I find these things fascinating and I can always expand my brain on the knowledge I already know. I’m an atheist so sometimes I do like to see debates but only when I’m not in a ocd spiral.

lalalaIa

Date posted: 12h

@Anonymous these are all really great. yeah i’m on summer vacation right now so i think the silence is getting to me. any other tips?

Anonymous

Date posted: 7h

@lalalaIa I’m 22 but I still love wattpad, it’s honestly just books at the end of the day. Or instead of episode I’ve been playing one called choices or chapters it’s more interesting and makes me forget alot of things

katiegrace

Date posted: 16h

I used to do this too! When I was in high school, I constantly had this fear. I was not having sex and would sit and cry on the toilet wondering when my period would come. Honestly, it has brought me a lot of compassion for myself to realize this was related to OCD. I didn’t understand it back then. I am also just beginning my journey here and I’m really scared! But feeling more hopeful now. Thanks for sharing this, it helps to know I am not alone.

lalalaIa

Date posted: 16h

@katiegrace i’m wishing you luck! how did you outgrow your fear?

katiegrace

Date posted: 16h

@lalalaIa I don’t know that I ever did. I think I just got to the age and stage that I wanted to get pregnant, so that was no longer something I thought about. I’ve always felt like my compulsions morphed into different things rather than really were overcome.

lalalaIa

Date posted: 16h

@katiegrace i get that!

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