My ocd is always making me question myself

@Anonymous I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this at such a young age! I started getting Pocd around 20 but it will get better! And being attracted to people your age is soooo normal and I’ll say this a lot of the time our brains can’t fully differentiate is 17-year-old from a 22year-old because in those years you are still developing in your face and your structure don’t worry I had to look this up and ask my therapist… but! unfortunately I do look up a lot of stuff due to ocd but our age as we get older doesn’t start showing until almost 25 when our brains as well as our thought processes change and even then our brains collectively go with our age group when we age even so, I know this for a fact that if we are worrying so much about it that means we are uncertain, pedos know they are pedos even if they hate their thoughts or not we are afraid of it and are uncertain. So I hope this helps!

@Beachpie Thanks so much for responding, ngl this triggered my ocd a little (undiagnosed but pretty sure i have it) immediately after you said that last part my ocd tried to look for evidence/ make me think, “no you’re sure, you’re actually this.” Like girl what? anyway, this is crazy disorder to deal with alongside sexual trauma.

@Facing_my_fears!♥️ I’m so sorry if I have triggered your ocd! But I have the same exact thoughts so i understand it’s hard not to think “ I am like this I am this person “ but if your brain keeps having to convince you it’s a tell tale sign it’s ocd trust me! The reason we are on this app is all the same! You’re not alone in your thoughts and feelings! I have the same exact thoughts and feelings that you’re having as someone who is diagnosed! It’ll all let up at some point we just have to be patient with our brains that constantly fight us

@Beachpie thank you for replying! I wasn’t blaming you for triggering me at all lol. yk I just found out ms. rachel is an ovd sufferer?? It’s so interesting to me and I was like “There’s hope yet!” Its like coming out the other end of this disorder forges some of the most prolific and profoundly aware and conscious minds on the planet, she inspires me, and hearing she struggles/d with it gives me so much hope. ocd attacks the softest souls with the deepest traumas with the darkest things imaginable, know you are not alone, you are beautiful, rooted for, no wmatter what you’ve seen or experienced or had happen, you are worthy. We are incredibly strong people being forged into diamonds against all this adversity.

@Facing_my_fears!♥️ Thank you so much! This was very kind I’m glad that there are other people that are able to persevere and thrive! And we will too!