My depression is worse then i remember

@Dani.c Thank you🩷🩷

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@Lelaa - Happy to share! One thing worth naming: the replaying itself is the compulsion here, not a path to an answer. Because you're reviewing someone else's words and intentions, there's no amount of mental checking that can ever produce certainty — and reviewing with an anxious lens will always turn something up, which is exactly why "I always find something" keeps happening. The relief of almost solving it is what keeps the loop going. "Constantly replaying past conversations? Here's what could be going on" https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/constantly-replaying-past-conversations-heres-what-could-be-going-on Covers the exact pattern you described — going back over things that were actually said years ago and scanning them for meaning — and why it's treated as a compulsion rather than a problem to solve. "5 strategies for breaking the cycle of rumination" https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/5-strategies-for-breaking-the-cycle-of-rumination Written by Stacy Quick, LPC, with concrete things to do in the moment the urge to replay a conversation about your dad shows up, including what to try when fully resisting feels impossible. Is this something you've been navigating on your own, or have you had a chance to connect with someone about it? 💬 Was this response helpful? Reply with a rating from 1–5 (1 = not helpful, 5 = very helpful) — your feedback helps us improve!