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Felipe, if you have never given your girlfriend reason to be afraid of you then she won't be. You can't help that you have ocd, show her an article on ocd and explain to her this is wgat I have, it latches onto the things we love the most, I love my daughter to pieces and know really I would never harm her, but then it comes in like but what if, what if its do hard to cope with everyday a constant mental argument. Thank you nocdover everything you said I am already doing but I just feel after nearly a year I can't take it anymore, little by little its taking my soul. I hate this illness
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I have something similar. I feel like I can hurt my girlfriend we are living together and this toughs are always in my mind. This can't be good for our brain, this level of anxiety is really bad for us. Taking about it give me some relief
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Have you told your girlfriend about the thoughts? Try talking to her about them. It might help
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I afraid she might feel scare about it.
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Wishing you the best with this. If you’re already seeking help other things you can do is identify the thoughts as irrational, recognize that they’re OCD and not reality, try to become at peace with the fact that the thoughts are there but that you can fight them and try to ignore them, and attempt to distract yourself with media, exercise, meditation, socializing, etc. all in addition to pursuing the support you’ve explained.
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- 16w
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