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Yes very relatable :) can I ask you what obsession it's about maybe I can give you some insight. Its okay if you want to keep it for yourself ofcourse
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Hmmm I don't have ROCD myself (not yet at least pfff), so I can't help you with that unfortunately. Thanks for sharing though. Try to keep reminding you it's not you but your OCD who shapes you in a certain way. And I know this is really hard, I'm having trouble with it myself. But stay strong :)
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It gets rid of the guilt temporarily but then the next thing comes up and I have to tell him that :(
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This happens to me in my relationship. It has destroyed it, but luckily my boyfriend stays with me. I would say I’m in recovery because I promised myself I wouldn’t confess again. You’re not alone.
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Ugh it’s horrible isn’t it, how does it happen for you? It’s likely I’ve dealt with it myself, it’s good to finally relate to someone on this, this is the biggest killer in my ocd. Like I’ll think about doing that thing then if I actually think they’re attractive it’s as if my mind is telling me to do that ‘semi act’ like move my head or whatever, because I should and I get thoughts telling me that I’m attracted to that person then another thought saying ‘are you really gonna be with your boyfriend forever?’ And try to convince me to do something ‘semi’. I feel I have no self control. I mean I’m sure it’s anxiety and just general thoughts of thinking someone is attractive but like my mind then jumps to the whole what if you cheat? And then it’ll say ‘what are you never going to kiss anyone else again?’ And all that stuff and pushing me towards that. It really sucks. I just try to convince myself that if it were on the very odd chance someone did lunge at me I would then think wait wait wtf no. But it’s hard to convince myself that when I keep doing these small things. It feels like it’s me. And telling my boyfriend I feel I need to tell him every detail and my morals behind it so he knows me for what I really am/want. It completely sucks. I can confess and just say it won’t happen again but then when the moment comes it happens again. It’s like I can’t keep a promise. Any thoughts or advice on this ^? Thanks so much for replying and reading this !
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^ sorry that’s so long it’s just good to know there’s someone who is finally like me! Haven’t spoke to someone about this before and they’ve understood.
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I completely understand. My confessing comes from my past. I’ve been with my bf for a long time and we were both so different when we started dating. Now that we are serious, there are things that would not be in our relationship that were okay back then. So the things I did back then that weren’t bad, I confess about now. We are both now more religious, which changes the relationship dynamic too. So I confess about things that I know would be wrong if I did them today. We were both barely 18 when we started dating, and kids do stupid stuff. It has destroyed my relationship because it seems every few weeks I have a new thing I regret doing. I never even did anything super bad to where I cheated or anything. Just small things that I would never do today.
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Ofc, basically I have relationship OCD, my biggest fear is cheating on my boyfriend. I think what set it off was when I was younger I had a lot to drink when I was also with him 3 years ago and did make out with someone else (before my onset of OCD). I decided at the time after talking to friends and family to not mention it as I was very drunk. I kind of went on and forgot about it, anyway a year and a half later I suddenly had a big argument with my boyfriend about something and I thought he broke up with me and would never talk to me again, from that moment onwards I started to fear about this thing I did in the past and couldn’t get the thought out of my head to tell him, I had to confess, we are over it now, but now I’m worried I could do that again, and constantly analysing myself to not cheat and believing all the time that someone will ‘lunge’ at me or touch me inappropriately and I’ll ‘go along with it’, also I analyse my intentions all the time about most of what I say and do.
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It’s even more annoying when someone is actually attractive, because I’ll think I’m more likely to cheat if I think they are attractive, I also doubt my relationship so I worry about my boyfriend not being good enough for me and he seems to bug me a lot, I will have thoughts like ‘was that too boring’ ‘was that too uptight’ etc etc. It seems to play on things that always annoyed me before I had OCD but I just sort of saw them as his funny ways and got on with it, now I’m like under pressure to hurry up and figure out if this relationship is right for me otherwise I’m leading him on
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Sorry it’s so much to read
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No problem, does he know you suffer frofrom OCD?
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Yeah he’s aware, when I confess things to him I do feel really bad like why is he still with me lol
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Hahaha I can imagine you think like that, he just loves you a lot :) And talking with him about it doesn't clear things up?
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Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry (i try to avoid even being angry if i can!) bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering? Did it just move? Why is it tingly? Why did it twitch?) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back? Is this an indication i was about to do something or will in the future? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't even know anymore bc of these twitches. Im so afraid! What I do know is I don't want to ever act out (idea is distressing not appealing) but it's so scary like why did i twitch or was i about to act out? Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent real urges or impulses and i also tend to ask ai or here if the anxiety gets so bad. Like how do I know of this is actually a serious concern and I should be very worried???
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