Not std checking again is irresponsible to me. What if I have infected myself? My partner will think I cheated and leave me I need to test again. But I’m scared the results will say I am riddled. How will I explain that? I’ll fucking kill myself if that happens but I can’t function without checking either

I worry my conjunctivitis was an STD even when I’ve never had them where you normally have STDs lol I tried to do erp by touching my eye then went to the loo. I am convinced I infected my genitals from using the toilet paper my “infected hand” touched

Also I do have hpv, I have to have another smear test in 6 months...most people have hpv which doesn’t worry me now but I nearly flipped when I found out

@uwotm8 You already have an sti then, so stop worrying. Getting another sti won’t change your life. You have to just push past the anxiety and know that as long as your healthy and practicing safe sex that’s all you can do.

@ThreeLittleBirds I don’t use condoms with my partner because we both tested negative at the start of our relationship Hpv isn’t the same as chlamydia or gohnorea though...my biggest fear is that any symptom I have might mean an undetected std and he will think I cheated and leave me because I was negative at the start!

@ThreeLittleBirds It would change my life because he’d obviously think I cheated when I didn’t. I don’t want him to leave me I think he’s amazing

Well I read they can be symptomless for years so I feel it’s possible Also I had conjunctivitis which can be caused by STDs so I can’t accept that I don’t need to test again incase I infected my vagina with eye gunk when I tried to do erp by not washing my hands when I touched my eye

I’ve been stuck on this for nearly 3 months since I did erp it doesn’t work I need to test again I’ve been paralysed by fear ever since

@uwotm8 Conjunctivitis is most commonly caused by e. Coli - which is a very common bacteria in general. It’s as easy to pick it up by shaking someone else’s unwashed hand or touching a door knob as any other way, and then there’s conjunctivitis. It’s true that some STIs are less symptomatic than others, but I’ve seen a lot of conflicting information around that. Syphillis and HPV are the only two I can think of. The first is treatable with antibiotics, and the second is borderline harmless; they say most human adults end up with it, actually. The incidence of cancer from it is relatively low despite all the hubbub about it. I understand this doesn’t help with your worries about your relationship. ? Have you ever talked to him about this worry and how often you’re testing to allow him the chance to respond and let you know what his reaction would be in case of a positive result from something other than cheating? It’s possible he might surprise you in a good way!

@Kat9311 Absolutely not because I talked to him before and he nearly fucking flipped and dumped me over opening a can of worms. He doesn’t even know I tested again since the start of the relationship and I have been 8 more times

@uwotm8 Well, scratch the idea of talking it out then. I hope you feel better soon; I know OCD anxiety over these things can be exhausting and doesn’t feel good at all. Best wishes for some relief for you.

@Kat9311 Sounds really horrible to say but I don’t care about my hpv diagnoses anymore When I first found out I nearly went mad because I was more concerned I’d develop warts and pass them on to him and he’d leave me Turns out they only test for “high risk” hpv that causes cancer, which is the type of hpv I was told I have...I panicked more over him leaving me though which sounds insane I JUST can’t deal with that happening to me I’m not sure why it’s so painful for me

@uwotm8 I’m sorry to hear that. I’ve had those relationships, where I literally couldn’t breath just over the thought of losing him. My stomach would feel like someone was using a cheese grater in it... I remember, and I’m sorry you’re experiencing that.

@Kat9311 It’s horrible it doesn’t help that his ex is still in the picture and was causing issues and he kept saying he felt like he should stop seeing me about 5 or 6 times either because he felt bad that he dragged me into her shit, or if I kicked off over her

@uwotm8 That was really, really unfair to you. I’m sorry you went through that as well. The blatant emotional manipulation there, and the lack of respect for you relationship make me upset. It’s not even my relationship, and I feel hurt for you!!

@Kat9311 Who do you mean, him or his ex? He’s lovely but his ex is a legitimate narcissist She’s awful I can’t even describe what she did to him

What do you mean? He meant it in a way where he felt bad for bringing me into his drama so he said a few times on separate occasions “do you think we should stop this?” And id get upset

@uwotm8 That’s exactly what I meant...