feeling extreme guilt after even MILDLY laughing at a male coworkers joke, or finding something they said somewhat funny, feeling like this means I’ve betrayed, and even cheated on my boyfriend, all because I laughed at something another guy said. If I suspect they like me, I still feel guilty even if I’ve already mentioned my bf so they know I’m not interested, if another guy talks to me and I respond, I overthink how my response came off to them and what if I accidentally unintentionally flirted and betrayed my bf once again? It’s like my brain goes to every possible hurtful place Anybody relate?

Completely relate. I analyse things before I speak to guys in my head like does that sound flirty and reword things?

Yes, I feel like my mind will purposely make me regret something that I did not want to even think. Or it tries convincing me that I did things on purpose to be shady to my partner. For me, it's very difficult to distinguish if it's part of o.c.d. or if I'm choosing. I get very confused.

And sometimes have to shake my head into reality and think, if this is not coming from me. Then maybe it's not me ?

I go over a situation in my head and try to solve it so I can relax but it only happens again

I know the way I am I will never want to betray my b.f. but I get almost lole hypnotized with my thoughts.

Yes this is me! I dunno if it’s just me but I think why if I physically cheat on my boyfriend and then I’ll like analyse my body too? Also I worse urges if a guy is attractive too, my brain is like convincing me to do it because I’m not happy in my relationship or it tells me that I won’t be with him forever so I may as well do something and I might actually fantasise about it but a part of me is like no I don’t want to do that because it would make me feel guilty and ashamed of myself!!?! I will try to get rid of the thoughts and impulses but sometimes I’ll actually give in, not actually cheat but like move my head in a certain direction in this idea that ‘someone may lunge at me’ ? i then have to confess to my boyfriend

But I get the thought like oh you just got away Scott free because someone wasn’t there and if they were you would have done something etc etc