Hi Guys. Really rough day today. As you may have seen in my other posts, blood in the bathroom is my number one trigger. Today, at my work at the mall, I was in a rush and the toilet liner ripped. No big deal, but I stood up, I noticed blood the size a bit bigger than a quarter right in the area that I sat on where the liner ripped. This was clearly not mine. I was very distressed by it but had to get back to my job. I am not worried about illness but just purely disgusted. When I got home I was so upset I took an extra long shower and feel as though I’m still not clean. I feel like all my clothes and my bag are contaminated and even the soaps I used in the shower. I’m trying to practice all the therapy techniques but it’s not helloing. Ignoring it is not helping. I’m trying not to ruminate but I’m overwhelmed with feeling disgusted. Please send me some techniques on how to move on. I know disgust isn’t harmful and I can’t get sick from it yet the fact that it touched me still bothers me a lot.

I don’t really know how to start this honestly. It may be long winded. I’m not sure that I have OCD, I’m not trying to take away any experience from anyone but I don’t know how else to explain when I obsess and feel consumed and disturbed by thoughts like this. I’ve been good for a while, thoughts have been at bay, I haven’t googled anything either or had any bodily responses/urges. But I saw something in the news today that brought it back up and disturbed me and I’m back in that headspace again if worrying I’m a danger or a freak or gross. I’m feeling alone in this, I don’t know how to talk about it, and I don’t know how to move through it.

I don’t know ir this happens to anyone else, but everytime I see a really violent or disgusting new in TV or something I can’t get it off my head in all day, or even week. I have this now, and is really bothering me because when I saw the new, I was painting my room, and I just can’t stop thinking that when I finish painting, I will be like: Oh, remember?, when you were painting you saw that awful thing on the news. It always happens to me, when I buy myself clothing and I have an intrusive thought I’m like: Oh, now everytime I wear this I’m going to remember... I’m looking for a way to distract myself for that thought, to relax, or just see things in a more positive way, any recommendations?:(

Hey, this is my first time posting and to be honest my first time really openly talking about my ocd so I’m just going to talk into the void and see if it helps. I’m having a really hard time right now and I’ve seen that for a lot of people here that NOCD has a good community of people. There’s a lot overall to unpack but right now the thing I’m really struggling with is contamination (particularly focused around death and what objects might have come into contact with people who have died, basically.. my wife’s grandmother just passed and I’m having a really awful time. My mother passed a few years ago, which caused me to get really sick and this is the first death I’ve dealt with since and with everything coming into the house that belonged to her (she died in her house.) I keep feeling worse and worse. (This plus covid has been.. awesome.) Multiple showers, hand washing, changing clothes.. I feel really frustrated with myself and completely ashamed because I’m obviously not being a good enough partner. My wife has been there.. she’s trying, she’ll shower or wash her hands if I ask but not without getting furious with me first, she acts as if I’m lying if I say she touched something that really bothers me. She takes it very personally and tells me that I don’t trust her enough (if I’m Anxious and need something repeated.) tonight I got called crazy and honestly I just feel like an ass of a person.