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Yes, it's common :(. But we know what we like and want deep inside and we'll eventually figure it out :)

There’s a boy ive been seeing since the summer and I’ve liked him a lot since then. And normally when I’m with him it can make my HOCD a little less just because I knew I liked Him. But every so often I get anxiety around him. Like we had a great weekend together this past weekend and I was so happy about it, then yesterday I was with him and i started getting anxiety wondering like do I really like him? And then it started feeling like I didn’t meanwhile I’ve been head over heels for this boy for a while now

I feel this. I’m also terrified because I’ve hooked up with other guys and while I desired to have contact with them and make out, i wasn’t always into it and it wasn’t always great. Especially if it was a guy I wasn’t into. Now my brain is certain I’m gay. But we are stronger than this

Yesss. Currently going through it :/

So me and him have been talking since the summer and have been hooking up ever since. I feel like me being the girl my crush on him was a little stronger than his crush on me. Like I always couldn’t wait for him to text me and stuff and I’ve been wanting to be serious with him but we decided to take things slow cause he didn’t want us to rush and I agreed. And now he’s showing more interest in me and treating me more like his girlfriend and I’m like not use to it but I liked it this whole weekend ofc. So then last night we were hanging out and there was one thing that turned me off about him and then I started having anxiety like wait do I not like him anymore now that he’s showing more interest in me or something, but the days before when he was I was loving it. And then I start thinking well what if this is a sign in actually a lesbian. Like I like a boy but then when he actually starts showing interest in my I start to not like him or something and it’s because I’m sub consciously a lesbian. Meanwhile I’ve had boyfriends in the past before I had HOCD and I was In love with them and none of this was ever a problem

But the funny thing is that I have friends that have told me that once a guy starts showing interest in them more they start not liking them as much. But I don’t honestly think that’s my case because he’s showed a lot of interest in me before and I’ve loved it

Ugh idk what to think

Sorry for the novel I’m just scared that I’m losing my strong feelings for him. Like I’ve literally liked this boy so much and have even told my friends how I feel like he might be the one I marry bc we have so much in common and get along so well

This just doesn’t make sense to me Sunday (I was so happy being with him and cuddling) and the yesterday (Monday) I was having anxiety if I actually like him or do I suddenly feel my feelings are going away. Maybe it’s just the fact that we are starting to get more serious that’s just scaring me

But we’ve gotten serious in the past and I was happy about it

The sad part is I have felt like I could love this boy and I would hate to see these feelings for him vanish bc I know that I have liked him so much. I’m full of so much anxiety right now

I just hate this I went from absolutely loving the thought of being with this boy and getting all happy and giddy about it to now being scared and having anxiety