I’m new here, and I decided to download this app because I’ve been having some weird thoughts for quite a long time. These thoughts might or might not have to do with my illnesses but I’m not sure. So ever since I was little I’ve had urges to harm people and myself, not because I WANT to be the cause of someone’s death but I just have impulses that make me want to do really, really horrible things. I self harm a bit, and when I get these impulses I usually search for pictures of dismembered bodies and things along those lines. I’ve had bad impulses involving myself and others, one time I was close to stabbing my mom and I don’t get it. When I tell people they usually say that I’m messed up, and I agree. I’ve also been having some pedophelic thoughts, and I’ve never really felt bothered by them until a couple of days ago. I had a really messed up dream about sexually abusing two children, and I’m way to ashamed to talk to my therapists about it. It might be one of those impulsive thoughts, but it bothers me that my thoughts don’t disturb me. I’ve never been abused in any way, I have an amazing family. I don’t get it. These thoughts of mine have usually circled around self harm, suicide, jumping off high things, and murder, but it’s just quite recently that this other thing comes to mind. If I don’t respond to any texts it’s because I easily get a lot of anxiety, but I’ll respond sooner or later. Sorry for such a long post. //Adam

Thats funny my name is adam same here POCD. This app is helpful but try to give positive feedback to othere and work together just to talk and stuff. Some people do exposures on here its good and all to relate but u know the drill with exposures its that constant battle with the OCD CIRCLE so i try to keep it to a minimum, and motivate othera in hence i motivate myself and usually learn from others because we all have ocd so its pritty cool in that way where one big family lol . But all prayers go to u brothha for downloading the app. We are here to work together to defeat OCD lets do it and live life with peace and not waiate any more life we waisted!?

Hey, I appreciate the quick response! I’ll try to just not think about it too much, I really wanted to get it off my chest tho. Feels good to talk to people who understand as well. Seems like us Adams think a bit alike, I also feel like I want to find a person with a bit more experience involving these things so I don’t just waste time or anything. I do feel a little bit rude when asking for help cus I’m actually doing fine, but talking to people helps clear my head a bit. I usually like drawing or playing guitar, it keeps my mind off things. And btw, thanks dude! I will keep going, hope you’re doing good too! ????

It might be hocd but i will definitely go ask a councelor and do ERP which is therapy for ocd and worka wonders for people. I myself haven't tried it but have to link up and find a counselor still. Im looking for a good one because alot of councelors dont have a lot of time experienced with this and i want somebody that has so i dont waist my time or theirs. ?

Try letting the thought pass and just go on about ur day i know its hard but honestly its the best thing to do is not to do exposures or compulsions because it will get worse so just try and do anytjing really. Watch a movie, talk on the phone, mediate, look at a crayon and think about all the colors ANYTHING else except exposures and compulsions worse thing to do u will get in a ocd loop and think about it all day. It hard and challenging but i wish i had this information 3 yeara ago when i did not know what it was