My POCD is back and therefore so is my feeling of complete loss of attraction to guys my own age. In fact I would say that the latter is what I’m obsessed with the most, the loss of attraction. Also just the weeks proceeding this I was so attracted to a certain guy that I had OCD that I might lose control and give in to sexual urges for him, I also know he’s not in to me. I’ve had this before where I’ve completely lost my normal attractions, and it’s freaky to say the least, so I know I can get through this. However, the last time I had this the loss of attraction lasted for months and it really made me feel like a pedo because I lost them completely. I miss my attractions so bad because it felt so good and now they’re gone and I really hate that. How do I get them back without it taking months? Even when I try to except the thoughts I still get pissed off because I don’t feel like the attractions are back.

Is that what happened to you?

@Hmac I have sexual intrusive thoughts and I’m in ERP. If you obsess about feelings of attraction, the anxiety will persist. You need to let go of trying to make yourself feel attraction, and wait for it to happen on its own.

can you please help if you’re still active??

@ciaraocd Sure what’s up?

@Hmac did you manage to get your attraction back or have you recovered from ocd or on recovery?? any tools or advice will help thank you!

@ciaraocd Yes and no. I feel like you’re got some of my attraction back but it doesn’t feel the same which probably means I’m still dealing with OCD…idk. But here’s all I’m gonna tell you last year was absolute hell for me, and when I say absolute hell, I mean I was on the verge of suicide every single day. But, you know what help me? The same thing that everyone is telling you about exposing yourself to whatever it is OCD has you obsessing about and allowing that sense of shame and anxiety to be there well going about your normal day like you used to before this. It’s hard I understand you’re allowed to have hard days. As time passes you will eventually have an aha moment and realize that you’re getting back to normal without even realizing it because you eventually I’ve become so OK with the idea of whatever OCD has you obsessing about.

@ciaraocd Here’s the other thing, while last year was the absolute year from hell, This year has been one of the best years of my life. I don’t know why it has to be this way but I feel like that’s why we go through suffering. So that we can then appreciate the life we have around us. I believe suffering enhances the good times that are to come. And the good times will come whether it’s a month from now or two years from now. Your quality of life will improve. The only thing you have to do is keep moving forward and stop trying to fix OCD, your brain will do that for you overtime. Just go about life, get a job that makes you feel like you have purpose, exercise a lot to get your anxious energy out, and do some thing that helps other people as you will soon realize that your experience will help someone else in another situation, rather it be the same or different. The secret to anxiety is that you have to go through it because the only way out is through. You have to feel it all, the pain, the hurt, and the shame. Hang in there my friend better days are ahead. And please if you are feeling suicidal I beg you: 1.) seek a therapist and do whatever they tell you to do. 2.) get on medication, A big thing that helped me was taking a genetics test to see which drug worked for me and would give me less symptoms than others. 3.) DON’T KILL YOUR SELF.You will get through it! And don’t “what if” about it. You will come out the other side A happier person! I promise!!!

@Hmac thank you!! i’m trying my best thank you so much, i’ll try my best to see if i can change my parents mind :)

@ciaraocd What’s their hangup?

Yes I am

@Hmac Please don’t take this the wrong way, but it’s so nice to know there is someone on here like me. :) if u wanna talk, I would love to. We are going to get thru this ?

@FuckOCD You as well

@FuckOCD Do you feel like any of your attractions have come back?

@FuckOCD Also tbh I don’t know what my sexuality after going through this and it because all attractions for guys my age pretty much disappeared overnight. I will say though this has happened before and it’s gonna away and the attractions did come back but just recently this has happened.

@Hmac Right now, the ones I WELCOME aren’t come back, but i am also in the middle of a spiral. They have come back before.

@FuckOCD *aren’t back

@FuckOCD That’s really hopefully to hear that I’m not the only one who experiences this.

@Hmac I feel the same way. If you wanna keep in touch as a support system I’d be willing to do that. Just don’t know how / what to use

@FuckOCD Just keep using this

@FuckOCD He friend how have you been?

@Hmac Sorry, just saw this. I’m okay, I keep remembering things that seem like proof that scare me. Hbu

@FuckOCD Yeah same, how about the attractions have they come back?

@Hmac They haven’t been AS bad

@FuckOCD Hbu?

@FuckOCD I mean have the attractions to men your own age come back?

@Hmac Yes they have. :) the POCD is still bad tho

@FuckOCD So weird mine are still gone and it’s been months. I don’t know what to do, it feel mega real!

@Hmac The fact that they were there before is a good sign imo

@Hmac But I know the feeling of things feeling “mega real” ... all different types of OCD. Praying it gets better for both of us

@FuckOCD I guess but it feels like my mind is telling me that I don’t even want those attractions back anymore and that I’ve found my true attractions. It’s so strange!

@FuckOCD I’m starting to wonder if porn had something to do with all of this? Like maybe I’m desensitized and need like a 5 month break.

@Hmac I think that would be a great idea honestly :)