i got diagnosed with ocd and depression for the first time in my life ever today and i feel like i just manipulated my psychiatrist into diagnosing me with ocd because at first he was just going to diagnose me with generalized anxiety disorder and i said i thought it was ocd because of other symptoms i used to feel when i was younger. if i hadnt gotten diagnosed with ocd that would just make me feel like i was crazier than i already think i am so i needed him to validate my anxieties because i cant tell if i just have intrusive thoughts telling me i want to kill people or if i actually want to kill people anymore, it makes me so so scared and nervous. just typing this makes me nervous because i know how crazy it looks. i feel like i should be locked up. i hate feeling this uneasy.

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Date posted: 5y

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Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

thank you so much i appreciate that :(

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@biodgrde ive had that :( ive literally had the most inappropriate thoughts about my partner like my brain looks for the worst things to think about and dwell over :( theyre kind of ridiculous when said out loud because theyre not logical but its a real thing we go through and im with you all the way :( we got this!!

patate

Date posted: 5y

I had ocd all my life and I’ve been seeing psychologist and they NEVER seen what I had. It’s me , one day, that saw a video on YouTube and seen that it was what I had. Sometimes , you have to tell to people what you think you have to make them realise that it’s what you got, cuz there is so many mental health that exist that he just didn’t think about ocd

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

i appreciate you saying that because it makes me feel not alone. i hate that people only think ocd is washing your hands over and over when there is a completely different section that they’re missing.

patate

Date posted: 5y

@sofiaadsr Yeah and the person that don’t take it seriously make me made !

patate

Date posted: 5y

@patate Mad*

Fathomable

Date posted: 5y

Also trust me if you had said to them what you said here about not being sure if you have OCD about killing people or really want to kill people because the thoughts won't go away and it makes you feel like a terrible person, he would 100% have diagnosed you with OCD anyway. Because it's what you have. It doesn't matter that you didn't say it because you feared being misunderstood or would have felt like a liar because of the OCD-guilt about the thoughts. The reality is still that your symptoms and experience are very clearly OCD. Your psychiatrist doesn't need to know every detail about what happens in your head or that you still have so many OCD symptoms in order to make a valid diagnosis of it. I hope that the formal diagnosis enables you to access OCD therapy with a well trained practitioner now.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

thank you very much wow :’) that makes me feel more at ease. also the fact that i have the thoughts does not make me feel as bad as it used to anymore? kind of like im accepting them but that very fact makes me feel like im an immoral person. i hate this cycle

Fathomable

Date posted: 5y

The world needs people who are informed about their own conditions. There is a lot of overlap between conditions and it's understandable that some clinicians might not spot the signs of OCD. You're not being manipulative by advocating for yourself.

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