- Username
- MJocd
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I have high high high moral expectations for myself and when I've broken any of them or percieved that I have I have self punished by degrading myself to the point of depression. It's not even something I do consciously anymore which I'm trying to correct
Yes 100%
It's really hard, idk how long I can cope with it :( my story above, I'd love some feedback if you're willing to give it x
@MJocd I’m in the same boat with you where I struggle with things and I know I’m not the only one but in my head I can’t accept it or forgive myself
I feel this.
I completely resonate with that. Once I went on medication, a majority of my obsessions and compulsions went away, but the moral ones have stuck with me. Only you know your heart and your intentions...the fact that you are so worried about being a good person shows that you are a good person. And quite frankly, if watching porn made you a bad person, than most men and a lot of women would be and people, too
Thankyou❤. Moral obsessions are the hardest To let go of. We dont want to accept the uncertainty we could be bad people at our core, that's usually what keeps us fighting with the OCD. Its definately a hard one, I hope it gets better for us all x
@MJocd Exactly! Especially since it’s so hard to find a proper exposure and response for this kind of obsession
@SuperNova22 Exactly, I dont even know how to do ERP for this obsession...its probably why its carried on for so long.
@MJocd Which obsessions do you have? What triggers you?
Yes. I beat myself up constantly whenever I make a mistake I feel could have ended up impacting someone negatively. I'm also always asking my family if they think certain choices I've made make me a bad person. It of course always ends up being me overeating or making an issue out of a non-issue, and I usually know that too but the uncertainty and chance that it might actually be an issue eats me alive. Hope you're doing better than me, wish you the best.
You sound similar to me, we are all struggling:( I hope it gets easier for us x
That’s what most of my OCD focuses on nowadays
Again, my story's up there. I'd love some Feedback coz I acc feel like I'm going mad. I dont want reassurance saying I'm not a bad person, just some ways to cope better with the thoughts. I know its OCD because most of the worlds population consume porn and they dont ruminate like this.
*bad people, not and people
Does anybody here struggle with existential obsessions? Like ruminating on issues like morality, the meaning of life, etc?
Has anyone else OCD toward morality? I have an obsession with being morally right, doing the right thing, being a good person etc I have a notebook with a list about my morals -things that are morally wrong/right -words to avoid because they are wrong -things to do to do the right thing -moral missions how to change the world ... I check at the end of the day if I was morally right and write it down and hate myself if I failed I am hypercritical of myself and also about others When for example and artist does something that’s against my morals(and even if it is only on slur in a song) I delete all their songs, unfollow them, don’t listen to the music again I am very isolated because almost no one can be always morally right ;me neither but I can’t stop this. Is this even OCD or am I narcissistic or something like that. Or am I maybe a narcissist with OCD. I come from a narcissistic family system so I am scared that maybe I turn into one without noticing.
I’ve always been a huge feminist, anti-racist, anti-sexual assaulters, etc. Basically against everybody anti-human rights. But because my OCD has been trying to convince me that I’m a sexual assaulter, a pedophile, racist, etc. (basically everything that goes against my morals), it also tries to tell me that I should sympathize with people I used to be against. Sometimes I’ll read about, say, teens committing sexual assault, and in the past I would have firmly said “they need to be punished”, whereas now I think “well, what if they didn’t know better? I made a mistake when I was a teen; what if they thought it was okay?” I never say these out loud because I dont want to make real victims feel bad, obviously. And if I hear someone has been racist, I’ll think, “What if they’re like me?” I still believe we need to eradicate sexual assault, racism, homophobia, etc, but I can’t help but think I’m a part of the problem, so sometimes I find myself sympathizing with “bad people”. It’s really messing my mind up. I don’t know what to think. Does anyone feel the same way or have any tips?
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