- Username
- Vidhyut
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I relate a lot to what you’re feeling. I’ve had fights with my parents over OCD every night for about a week now, and I can feel it affecting my relationship with everyone around me. My grades are tanking as well. These are all struggles that OCD brings on, but just know that there are ways to fix it and reduce the effects of it. There is a way to get your life back. If your therapist isn’t helpful, would it be that bad if you tried another one?
Whenever I bring up this topic, my parents just deny it and say I'm arrogant and I refuse to listen to my therapist, even when I know he isn't helping much. So since this year I've tried to cure this on my own. But it's really hard without any guidance. I don't have anyone to talk to, no one will understand me, and my family members think that I'm a freak. Ocd is hard but it's even harder when you're alone..
As someone who kept my OCD to myself for 4 years, I can tell you that you CANNOT beat it on your own. There’s just no way. It’s a disorder, and you need someone who doesn’t have a disorder to help you get through it. That doesn’t mean you should give up, but it means that you’ll have a lot more success in managing it if you find someone you trust to help you get through it. Are you sure your parents won’t help you?
My parents do try to help, but even they get fed up and tired of me, I know they are looking out for me but they aren't being very helpful tbh. I don't know what to do
My siblings don’t even believe me when I say I have these problems. They think I’m being extra and overreacting. So I learned to not give a shit about what they think, all that matters is my mental health. If they choose to believe me,great, if not we’ll shit. Nothing I can do about that. Wish you the best of luck!
Exactly! Everyone thinks I'm being extra and overreacting! No one takes me seriously and just label me as a freak. Ocd itself is hard and I have to deal with this crap too lol
@Vidhyut That’s why I learned not to care anymore. If they’re going to make fun of it and not even try to understand, what’s the point of explaining. Save your breathe
@sillybilly Exactly! thanks for listening and hope you beat ocd soon
it’s tough. people always talk about the social stigma around mental health, but I didn’t know how serious it was until I asked for help and people started looking at me different
I feel you. Only someone who has been on the same path can understand. Wish you all the best and thanks for listening
I can relate as well back before I actually found out I had OCD my mom used to say the same things why don't you just snap out of it...the only problem was I couldn't and the doctor put me on meds and always do whenever I try to go and get help to better manage my OCD but I have always been reluctant to go on meds for it.So I have now decided to try to learn to manage it on my own.
Even i was hesitant to go on meds.. They have side effects. So I'm trying to manage ocd by myself and it's tough
EXACTLY...and the side effects is what I was worried about when it comes to meds.
I can relate a lot to what you’re going through. My OCD has morphed into just about every aspect of my life. I have been told these things too and I find myself feeling & thinking like “why can’t I just calm down and why can’t I just be like eve else?” I have a very hard time accepting my disorder but I know I have to if I ever want to get better. It may feel like it, but I promise u ur not alone. My anxiety has been EXTREMELY high lately. I’m honestly not sure why, but I constantly feel like I need to find out why and make myself “normal” again or “how I should be” I’m trying so hard to not react to my anxiety but it feels like I’m going to die from something if I don’t. I just want to be ok, but I know that I may never be ok again, and that makes me so sad. I miss who and how I was before OCD and anxiety took control of my life. Also everyone else probably isn’t having a happy life even though u may think they are. Everyone has anxiety about something it’s just that ours is a bit different and more persistent than others.
I’m so sorry you’re dealing with them. That’s really disheartening and I’m sure it hurts your feelings. Your OCD is real and you’re doing the best you can with what you’ve got. Have you looked into group therapy? Many areas have local support groups for people with OCD. And some are even for both OCD sufferers and their families. If your therapist isn’t being helpful, a group might at least help you feel less alone. And if your family can join, hopefully they can see other families being more supportive and learn to stop being such assholes to their kid who’s clearly suffering and needs support.
I don’t know if I’m ever going to get better, if I’m ever going to feel good, if I’m ever going to be able to carry on with this 10 years down the road. It’s torture with no exit, for me recently. Every time I bring up my OCD around family, they get annoyed. I can’t go to friends because it has only been of temporary relief. I am literally tearing up as I write this. I’m afraid I’m so close to convincing myself of the horrible lies my OCD has been telling me. I just can’t, I don’t know if there’s anyone or thing that can make me feel better. It’s been like lifting gigantic boulder up a steep mountain the entire day—and I could be crushed by it if not careful. If there is a god, why must he put me through this? I have already been through some many enough hard times in life, this OCD has only magnified any insecurities, anxieties, feeling of loneliness, self hate, and negative emotions.
I’m fairly new to treating my OCD and have felt crazy for most of my life. It didn’t help that no one in my life truly understood OCD and always said I was being dramatic. I very recently (within the past few months) finally got diagnosed with OCD and my whole life started to make sense. However, I recently opened up to someone I really believed I trusted about the intrusive thoughts I have and now feel worse than I ever have before. They essentially called me a psychopath and said they are worried for the people around me. Even though I would and could never hurt anyone. I’ve never felt more alone and broken in my life. I already try very hard to hide my OCD and everything associated with it because no one in my life understands so it’s been easier to deal with it myself than listen to everyone say whatever they have to say about my situation. After what happened today I’m even more inclined to just keep it to myself. I don’t know what I’m expecting from writing this but I figure this is the best place to write what I’m feeling. Going through OCD is hard enough on it’s own. But when people are telling you they think you’re a danger to society and are crazy because of your intrusive thoughts it really hurts. I’m just tired.
I’ve struggled for POCD for years, since I was 17 and I’m 22 now, about to be 23. I had other obsessions, HOCD being the second worst, but now even that doesn’t bother me anymore. When I developed POCD it was a very traumatizing day. I was just figuring out that I had OCD and researching pure O OCD and saw POCD listed underneath the types of obsessions. I was so freaked out by the possibility of that that I developed it. I ended up spiraling into a panic attack and watched videos on YouTube that had children in them in order to try and prove that I didn’t have POCD. But of course that just made it worse. I went to therapy and did ERT which made it a lot better, but even back then I was still uncomfortable talking about my groinal responses and false attraction responses so I don’t think I fully treated it. I was able to be fine for a long time, years, of me being able to be okay with dealing with POCD even when It popped up. It mainly only bothered me when I saw children in media for some reason but not in real life. Now it’s just both Oh and I’ve been a summer camp counselor since I was 15, so I’ve worked with kids every summer. I think POCD is especially difficult for me because I’ve always enjoyed working with kids and it deeply scared me.😭 It wasn’t until last summer that I started to notice it being more difficult to deal with again. Then I went through a rough patch in my life and since then it’s been way worse on and off again. I will go through the motions of feeling like “okay I’m just gonna think maybe, maybe not. I don’t care, I know myself so I’ll be fine. I’m a great person. I can handle this.” To something actually triggering me and me feeling this intense and gripping feeling of anxiety, like a sinking pit in my stomach and then it’s so hard to turn away from. I’ve tried doing ERT on my own but as soon as I stop I always feel like I move backwards. I just don’t know if I can ever move past this like I have with my other obsessions…it is so haunting and has traumatized me more than once. I’m working on seeing an OCD therapist, most likely through the NOCD app. So I am planning to do that as soon as I can, I just feel so frustrated right now…I’ve kept being triggered the past 2 weeks and I just want it to leave me alone. I don’t want to think about these things. I just want to focus on living my life. It’s so annoying and awful, and it makes me feel sick and so uncomfortable. It’s like telling someone to stop but they won’t; my brain just won’t stop even though I want it to. And my intrusive thoughts are paired with images, so it’s also like having something awful shoved in my face that I can’t turn away from because it’s in my mind. I just really felt the need to vent some of my feelings out…I’ve been going through a rough time again, had a lot of stress over college exams & projects, had a misunderstanding with my partner, got a random tooth pain, and also got screwed over on said project by my team members giving me awful scores for no reason. So yeah it’s just been rough 😔I will be going to the dentist soon. Ugh just so many bad things are happening and OCD just makes it feel worse. Sometimes I think what if the universe is punishing me for having POCD? Then I try to remember to be kind to myself instead. If you’re dealing with this you’re not alone ❤️
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