With being at home I’m struggling a lot lately, being home constantly Is really hard. I have both pocd and rocd, so I haven’t been able to do my usual erp (being around kids at my work) and I’m constantly around my boyfriend so I question EVERYTHING I think and do and worry about everything relating to our relationship. I feel trapped not only in my house but also in my head. And my ocd is usually only sex related, but I’m obsessing about the virus too as I live in New York and it’s really starting to get bad here.

irish_and_ocd

Date posted: 5y

Im so sorry to hear that you are going through this. This is a rough time for all of us with OCD. Does your boyfriend know about your OCD? Is there a way that you can do some other type of ERP, like watch TV or movies with kids, or something else?

bee232

Date posted: 5y

He knows that I have ocd, and that being home is making it worse and that I’m struggling. He does his best to get me up and out of bed every day so I’m not stewing in the worst of my emotions, but he does not know the specifics of it all. I’m too afraid the rocd will make him think I don’t care about him or want to break up when I don’t know if that’s true, and I’m afraid the pocd will make him think I’m a monster.

irish_and_ocd

Date posted: 5y

@brittaa I can see that that would be super hard. I don't really tell people the specifics of my OCD either (religious OCD and HOCD) because I feel like they just won't understand and will just think I'm confused or a horrible person. How long have you had OCD?

bee232

Date posted: 5y

@Praise My best friend and my mom do both know the specifics of it, and they’ve been really supportive of everything so I will say having some people know is very liberating. And I was diagnosed with ocd in November of 2019, but I had episodes of it my whole life looking back. (I actually had an experience with hocd for a while too, but eventually told my mom what was going on and she was kinda like “dude that doesn’t make any sense you’ve been boy crazy your whole life”, and it snapped me out of it)

irish_and_ocd

Date posted: 5y

Sort of similar to me, I was diagnosed October last year though I've had it since 2014. I guess you could ask him if he would like to know or understand more? But of course just make sure that if he does know, that you don't then rely on him for reassurance and stuff, to make sure he knows how to support you in a healthy way. I've just attached a link that may or may not be helpful... https://www.ughocd.com/how-to-explain-ocd-to-someone-who-doesnt-have-it/

bee232

Date posted: 5y

He does want to know, but only if I want to tell him. He knows I’m not comfortable going into detail so he doesn’t push to know more. He was going to school for mental health counseling so he knows the basics of ocd, and that mine is “intrusive thoughts” based but that’s the most I’m willing to get into it with him, I just don’t think he would understand because if i didn’t have this, I don’t think I would understand either. I thought about telling him about the previous experience with hocd I had to give him some idea, but one of his (important) ex’s actually ended up being a lesbian and I don’t want him to think that’s happening to him again. But thank you very much for the link I’ll look into that!!

irish_and_ocd

Date posted: 5y

@brittaa Absolutely, whatever is comfortable for you! You know yourself best and do whatever will help you!

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