i feel like the only way out is to break up with my boyfriend :(

I'll say this again....do NOT give in to OCD. If u end your relationship it will find something else to latch onto and torture you with. And you will have ended your relationship for...what? I kno that it may "feel" right and you think you will be free of whatever mindless chatter OCD is coming at you with, but trust me, it will not end. Itll just move on to something else and once again, here we go. If you let it, OCD will ruin your life but we must NOT allow that. I know the anxiety sucks, believe me I been there. But do not listen to what it says. It is a BS talker and that's the only way you must regard the threats it faces you with.

Before you make any quick decisions: you need to think about the actual relationship instead of just the ocd. Does he love you? Do you love him? Think about the good times with him. Think about the not so good times with him. Do you communicate in a healthy way? OCD can find awful ways to try to ruin your life. Once one part is ruined, it loves to the next. I’m not trying to sway you to not break up with him because I don’t know you all or the whole story, but I just want to make sure that whatever you decide is your own decision and not one that ocd makes. Communication with your boyfriend about your ocd is so important. I’m in a relationship currently as well and my girlfriend is very supportive. Through healthy communication we learned about each other. She struggles with anxiety and post traumatic stress disorder. It can be hard sometimes because we could be having a fun little day and then she bumps her head on something and she completely shuts down and thinks that someone is hurting her. It can be very challenging sometimes but I’ve learned what to do when things like that happen to her and she knows what to do if I have an ocd episode. She’s very caring and we couldn’t be happier. I don’t want you to miss out on a loving relationship. When it comes down to it, it’s your decision but like I said, make sure it’s your decision and not one made because of ocd! Much love

I feel you I felt like I was cheating my ex of a great relationship because I was not myself and now that I’m alone I just feel more fucked up I dont know what to do as well