Hi everyone I am currently suffering from HOCD and ROCD (those being the strongest) I have been trying so so hard to overcome this but I sometimes feel like I am in square 1 all over again. My intrusive thoughts have gotten the best of me but I think it is time to overcome this obstacle because I know I am strong and I know I will not give up. As for HOCD I got triggered and started questioning myself... I know I am straight and I want to be straight but the fear of being bisexual/ gay I’d always there (there is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay/bisexual) but this is just not me nor who I want to be. My ROCD has been with me for a bit longer but I have managed to calm it down... I am so so scared to leave my boyfriend and I want to be always certain that I will choose him no matter what. (There is an OCD pattern... always wanting 100% certainty) I wish to get some wisdom as to how to overcome these things so that I can live a better life. I do have some questions so if anyone has some wisdom for me I would love that!! I sometimes feel as if my unwanted intrusive thoughts are a type of compulsion... like for example every time I see a girl now I have to say “oh I like her” (even though I know I don’t I feel like I have to say it) would it be healthy to stop the cycle and rewire my brain to stop myself from doing this? When I am not feeling anxious should I bring up a negative thought that causes me distress so that I can have better progress or should I leave a certain time of day to tackle my thoughts so that it doesn’t consume my whole day? Thank you so much for reading this!!

Madeline

Date posted: 5y

Hi! I’ve been suffering from hocd since high school. I know how awful it is. My best advice is when you have those thoughts just don’t even acknowledge them. So when I get a groinal response or something else my compulsion is to tell myself that I like boys, but then the cycle continues. If I just ignore it and don’t do anything the hocd starts to go away. So when you think “Oh I like her” just let it pass by. Another piece of advice that helps me is I always tell myself “Even if I was gay/bi I don’t have to act on it.” That helps me take control of my life and realize that this is not the truth

takingmylife...

Date posted: 5y

I am thankful I am not the only when dealing with this type of thoughts. I am going to start saying that as well. I guess it’s just the feeling I get when I say “even if I were bi I won’t act on it” it still causes anxiety but I will just let the discomfort be there. For some reason I bring up the worst thoughts I have because I feel like I need to say something bad/ inappropriate and I feel like that is a type of compulsion too so it would be good to break this cycle. Thank you so much for your input

Madeline

Date posted: 5y

@sofiaguerrrero Of course! You are not alone, there are tons of people on here that are experiencing the same thing. I know that deep down I am straight and that I will end up with a man and I want to end up with a man. OCD is the doubters disease and attacks what’s most important to you

takingmylife...

Date posted: 5y

@Madeline Exactly!!! Like I have a boyfriend and have been with him for over a year and stuff so I will just let this pass by. Because in some way it affects my relationship with him and stuff

Madeline

Date posted: 5y

@sofiaguerrrero I’m so sorry! One way I know for sure is how much I cry over my ex boyfriend lol ? but also people are gay don’t have anxiety about being gay. I’m also religious and sometimes I pray every night to end up with a man. I beg God please let me marry a man.

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