Anybody else’s ocd get so complicated that you can’t even comprehend the thoughts in your own head, don’t mind trying to explain it to a therapist

I think I may be understanding what you’re saying... Personally, along with being obsessive, my thoughts (usually about a topic I’m currently obsessed with) are so rapid and so random I have a hard time making sense of them. If I close my eyes I can “feel” my thoughts traveling at speeds I can’t explain, they do feel like they are being set of by “chain reactions” of other thoughts but I don’t understand where they come from. This leads to anxiety because one of my obsessions is “understanding everything” (which I know is impossible) and how can I understand if I can’t even keep up with my own thoughts. Sticky notes, white boards, highlighters, and the notes app on my phone help me to keep track of some of my thoughts. But ultimately accepting the fact that I can’t keep track of them all (which does bother me). And don’t get me started on trying to explain those thoughts to another person (especially a therapist). My thoughts move so fast I stutter, can’t get my main points across and start to panic. (For example: it’s taken me 30 min, 8 proof reads, and 3 retypes to create this response.) Having a list of bullet points helps me to keep on track and try to make sense of what I’m saying. I don’t know if that’s what you were asking but I hope you can see that you’re not alone, even if it is in the smallest ways. Stay strong!

Pocd just started for me. And I seeked help fast. I had to be open and honest and it was really tough. I have had much success this week. Just need to keep doing ERP.

Your right. Understanding other people's OCD can help and also cause a new OCD. That happened to me the past few weeks.

Write down your thoughts throughly. Even if you forget some of them.

Your therapist will help. You found the right place! Speak your mind!

Proud of you!

@kyleflann That was a great description. I sometimes have that going on where I can feel my thoughts going by so fast. I also want to analyze and understand a lot and so I tell myself that I don’t have to analyze and figure everything out. That usually helps me to let it pass then. Are you taking any medication? I found that once I started taking an SSRI that my thoughts weren’t all over the place so much anymore.

Billnye- It’s the GeneSight psychotropic test. You can google it online to find out more info about it, but I believe you have to go through a doctor since it’s a blood test?

Yes. Everything gets really cloudy. And doing my compulsions (which for me are purely mental) honestly can make things more cloudy. It's like patching a hole in your jeans - it's fixed for now, but the fix weakens the integrity of the fabric and you have to keep mending the patch.

Kyleflann - totally get it. I used to not be able to take ssris because of terrible side effects. It was easier to deal with the ocd then feel crappy all day long. This is just a thought that you might want to consider? There is a blood test that you can take to find out what ssris are compatible for you. Maybe the 5 different ones you took were not right for you? Not sure?