billnye
- Date posted
- 4y ago
kyleflannkyleflann
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I think I may be understanding what you’re saying... Personally, along with being obsessive, my thoughts (usually about a topic I’m currently obsessed with) are so rapid and so random I have a hard time making sense of them. If I close my eyes I can “feel” my thoughts traveling at speeds I can’t explain, they do feel like they are being set of by “chain reactions” of other thoughts but I don’t understand where they come from. This leads to anxiety because one of my obsessions is “understanding everything” (which I know is impossible) and how can I understand if I can’t even keep up with my own thoughts. Sticky notes, white boards, highlighters, and the notes app on my phone help me to keep track of some of my thoughts. But ultimately accepting the fact that I can’t keep track of them all (which does bother me). And don’t get me started on trying to explain those thoughts to another person (especially a therapist). My thoughts move so fast I stutter, can’t get my main points across and start to panic. (For example: it’s taken me 30 min, 8 proof reads, and 3 retypes to create this response.) Having a list of bullet points helps me to keep on track and try to make sense of what I’m saying. I don’t know if that’s what you were asking but I hope you can see that you’re not alone, even if it is in the smallest ways. Stay strong!
billnyebillnye
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thanks bro means a lot. Pocd is tough but the people on this app make things easier for me.
kstyle4kstyle4
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Pocd just started for me. And I seeked help fast. I had to be open and honest and it was really tough. I have had much success this week. Just need to keep doing ERP.
billnyebillnye
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I have had it years. Only started therapy with an ocd specialist recently and haven’t done erp yet
billnyebillnye
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I’m glad you’re making progress!
kstyle4kstyle4
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@billnye Thanks!
kstyle4kstyle4
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Your right. Understanding other people's OCD can help and also cause a new OCD. That happened to me the past few weeks.
billnyebillnye
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I get that too! But what I’m saying is the thoughts race so much that I can’t make sense of them, and I get triggered by things that should necessarily trigger me making a weird chain reaction of thoughts that I can’t understand
kstyle4kstyle4
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Write down your thoughts throughly. Even if you forget some of them.
lilithlilith
- Date posted
- 4y ago
i've done this so i can say it helps. literally wrote down every single thought in my head during a breakdown. made me realize how illogical everything sounded in my brain.
kstyle4kstyle4
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Your therapist will help. You found the right place! Speak your mind!
kstyle4kstyle4
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Proud of you!
DMD DMD
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@kyleflann That was a great description. I sometimes have that going on where I can feel my thoughts going by so fast. I also want to analyze and understand a lot and so I tell myself that I don’t have to analyze and figure everything out. That usually helps me to let it pass then. Are you taking any medication? I found that once I started taking an SSRI that my thoughts weren’t all over the place so much anymore.
kyleflannkyleflann
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I’m not currently taking any medications. I’ve tried 5 different types of SSRIs, while they do decrease my symptoms of OCD and slow down my thoughts, they tend to also cause me depression and an increase in intrusive thoughts of self harm (for me it was like a trade-off). It’s frustrating at times but I’ve found it better for me personally to find and learn ways to live with my OCD. Not saying one way is easier than the other (because both are constant battles) but I’d personally rather live with my OCD thoughts than the 24/7 intrusive thoughts of self harm that the SSRIs seemed to give me. But, I’m really glad they seem to be working great for you! That’s awesome to hear!
DMD DMD
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Billnye- It’s the GeneSight psychotropic test. You can google it online to find out more info about it, but I believe you have to go through a doctor since it’s a blood test?
billnyebillnye
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Ok thank you
sfgal88sfgal88
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Yes. Everything gets really cloudy. And doing my compulsions (which for me are purely mental) honestly can make things more cloudy. It's like patching a hole in your jeans - it's fixed for now, but the fix weakens the integrity of the fabric and you have to keep mending the patch.
kstyle4kstyle4
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Instead of mending a patch, think of a series of speed bumps on fresh asphalt. Over time those compulsion are big bumps, and as you rethink of the same thought. Your drive over that bump and making the bump smaller. I'm just trying to relate to the SUD's rating from therapy. Overtime your compulsions should be less cloudy. I hope.
DMD DMD
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Kyleflann - totally get it. I used to not be able to take ssris because of terrible side effects. It was easier to deal with the ocd then feel crappy all day long. This is just a thought that you might want to consider? There is a blood test that you can take to find out what ssris are compatible for you. Maybe the 5 different ones you took were not right for you? Not sure?
billnyebillnye
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Can you elaborate on this blood test? Is this something your doctor would take care of for you?
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