Monty1898
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AngiefreeAngiefree
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I have good days and i have bad days but i survived all of them so i will survive this roller coaster of emotion lol
AngiefreeAngiefree
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And just knowing that we are not alone feeling like this and not us going coocoo it helps ;)
gabgirl2234gabgirl2234
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I have harm ocd. And mine is worried about hurting others mostly kids or someone who is defenseless. I have false memories with that also. I really wish mine was suicidal ocd
martini_6710martini_6710
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Yeah I have this too ^
AngiefreeAngiefree
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Wishing to have another type of ocd is really not the best way to go! Every ocd theme are hard none are better than another thrust me :(
Evelyn4416Evelyn4416
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I completely agree with this. I always thought my main topic was horrible and when it started taking on different topics they were just as awful
AngiefreeAngiefree
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I personally deal with suicidal Ocd theme its hard as H.... lol and i deal with it and just wish i had no ocd at all and not another theme ! Let’s be strong in our journey guys
amelamel
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Do you also have mental rituals to check if it is what you want ? Because it is horrible. A month ago, I didn't think of suicide at all!!!I was fine. It all happened so suddenly and these ideas are stuck.
AngiefreeAngiefree
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@amel The same thing out of the blue it started and now stuck :( i constantly have these check in if i feel happy and if its what i want ... and bam a huge panic attack comes in because no its not what i want so for that i know for a fact that its ocd and my ego talking and not me because i want to live a long hapoy life ! And thats what ocd does it attacks what you cherish and value the most you know! So im sticking with that ... that its just a THOUGHT and not me thinking about it
Evelyn4416Evelyn4416
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@Angiefree I deal with the exact same thing. At least we can find some comfort knowing there are others dealing with the same thing
amelamel
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Yes. I had almost forgotten that I had ocd. I was doing so well as if these episodes would not come anymore.. It's crazy. This New fear of suicide is weird for me since I'm happy and if somebody had told me three months ago that I would have a fear of Killing myself, I would have laughed. Ocd is crazy. It feels so real and I' trying to resist compulsions(mental checking to see me dead and to check if it's what I want...) as much as I can. Sometimes I Just Wonder if ocd can be cured.
AngiefreeAngiefree
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Jeez the brain is sooo sneaky lol we will get trough this im positive
amelamel
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Yes we'll. it takes time ans practice. I try to see that episode as chance to work on me and my brain. not feed compulsions and try to have my normal routine :Cook, look after my daughter,...
amelamel
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How does it feel for you ? Is it self directed ?
Monty1898Monty1898
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Unfortunately not I really wish it was
amelamel
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For me I am scared of comitting suicide whereas I was absolutely happy a month ago. So weird.
Monty1898Monty1898
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See I feel I could handle that and would much rather it but Ofc I’m not in that situation
Evelyn4416Evelyn4416
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Happy as in didn’t deal with the topic? I struggle with suicidal OCD as well
amelamel
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In what situation are you ?
amelamel
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I'm not English so sorry if I do mistakes ? I don't have any good days for about a month and half. It's hard coz' I had projects with my job, m'y little daughter and didn't think of having these stuck thoughts at all. It's hard.
AngiefreeAngiefree
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I understand really i feel the same ! All was good and 5 months ago bam it hit me and got stuck :( i love my son and have big plan for our future
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