hateocd123
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takingmylifebacktakingmylife...
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Literally me. I feel like I have to be with a girl now even though I am not bi or gay just because my mind is telling me that I am not living a true life and it’s exhausting. Because I want my future with my bf not anyone else
Maria SavioMaria Savio
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Do not listen to the OCD...it will do anything to mess your life up. Say you break up with your significant other, the OCD and the ruminating will not go away, it will just find something else to attack. And you will be without your relationship for nothing. As hard as it is, resolute yourself to being in your relationship if that's what you know you want and do NOT give attention to what OCD is telling you. Do not let it win
FathomableFathomable
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Why would being gay mean you need to immediately end your happy relationship?
hateocd123hateocd123
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Because I'm "supposed" to be in a relationship with a girl if I'm gay.
hateocd123hateocd123
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The funny thing is I don't want anything to do with a girl in that way
FathomableFathomable
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@hateocd123 Supppsed to do something you don't want to do? Says who?
hateocd123hateocd123
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@Louw Idk its feels like I'm being pushed towards it against my will
FathomableFathomable
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@hateocd123 By who?
hateocd123hateocd123
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@Louw By no one
FathomableFathomable
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@hateocd123 Can't you just do what you want to do and not do what you don't want to do?
hateocd123hateocd123
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@Louw That's what I'm doing, but the thoughts and the distress don't make it easy
199903199903
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Your dad is onto something! Mindfulness is a powerful tool when dealing with anxiety. Jon Hershfield has a lot of great articles about it on his website ocdbaltimore.com and in his books. Essentially, it’s living in the now while noticing and accepting all thoughts, feelings, sensations, and so on. The real issue with OCD though isn’t the thought - it’s the uncertainty. Often people will say things like “if I’m gay, I’m gay but why can’t I just be sure?!”. The treatment for this that goes along with mindfulness is ERP. In the mean time, mindfulness is an amazing tool to work alongside it ❤️
hateocd123hateocd123
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For me it's not like that. It's more like I don't want to be gay, but I feel gay. But feeling gay for me isn't actually being gay it's like this foreign concept that has nothing to do with actually being gay. It's almost like the fear has labeled itself as "fear of being gay" without me even being gay! I like being intimate with men, I like crushing on men. I also like looking at girls. So I know in reality I'm bisexual, but I don't really like that label because I'm not sexually interested in being with a woman and I feel like it's not really a good fit to describe me. It feels as though this has hijacked my identity and I'm "psuedo gay". I wish I had a better way to describe it.
hateocd123hateocd123
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The "for me it's not like that" part was in reference to "if I'm gay, I'm gay, but why can't I just be sure". It almost feels as if my mind has made up on the surface that I AM gay, but if I dig deeper I know that it's not really me and not what I want. It's the strangest feeling. At this point it's like my brain defaults to accepting that I'm a lesbian just in case I'm wrong about being bi or straight.
hateocd123hateocd123
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It's that feeling of what if I'm wrong about my sexuality that makes it so disturbing
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