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Listen to your therapist. Whatever member said that to you is talking nonsense.

Gay people can have hocd meaning that they think they're straight. And vice versa with straight people. This is the way ocd works. Mess's with your mind.

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I am only in my intial stages but I am struggling with all the thoughts of replaying gay sex through my mind to try and chase some dislike and don’t get it, I literally analyse everything and feel that i have internalised homophobia or suppression. What do you mean although that is fact, sorry. I think what is scary to know is a feel like I don’t think I am straight I feel like I am Gay all the time with the amount I think about this and now someone has mentioned that gay people can have HOCD because they are scared to be gay just makes me question that I am In denial

You'll start to feel Better. But this is a battle of time. Ocd isnt a quick fix. But it definitely can be managed and beaten. I first got my anxiety after a major panic attack. I had no panic attacks since and the anxiety is definitely not what it was in the early stages of it? time is a healer. Rome wasn't built in a day.

I know but didn’t think that gay people could develop HOCD or POCD, i have just never heard of it. I have grown up liking women was heavily into porn as a teenager, buying porn mags, by filthy dvds and one comment spiralled me out of control. Started getting pictures of kissing my dad, my brother, my uncle, can’t be around friends as picture kissing them all. Once that comment was made it was like my life came crashing down. I became a recluse for two years before I seeked actually therapy. I went through CBT and became better for 9 years and then was hit again 12 months ago which has been the worst. Constant thoughts from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep, I would imagine kissing my male bosses whether they be 30 or 50. I would go into the toilets and kiss walls. The list is endless. Every thought now of kissing a guy feels pleasing I still get moments where I think I couldn’t give a blowjob, I couldn’t stick my finger up a mans bum but then I go how do I know. I have a gay councillor that I see every Monday,says I don’t sound gay at all but knowing now what you have said Louw has made me question everything as I have been saying this could be the case. You say you have come across people that are Gay or pedo and have HOcD or PoCD have you seen articles or threads I could read as would be interested to see there experience.

Okay sorry about this.i am just very confused about one of the members statements which will probably leave a lot of people in distress and questioning now. I have been told by multiple therapists that HoCd people don’t become what they fear but a member is saying Gay people becaue they are ashamed of been gay also express hocd symptoms and just wondering if someone could please explain this to me please. He also mentioned POCD who also are ashamed of this also express OCd symptoms of the same. Just really confused as I am going through therapy and didn’t think this could happen???