- Date posted
- 5y
- Date posted
- 5y
I don't want to spread misinformation or tell you something and it not be factual but I do know it is extremely common for people with ocd to believe they don't have ocd. Like for example, people with harm ocd believing that they don't actually have ocd and that they want to harm others even though they dont. I honestly hope you feel better and are able to get the proper treatment. It was not kind of your psychiatric nurse to tell you those things and I'm so sorry.
- Date posted
- 5y
Also I don't know if you're financially able too but Chrissie Hodges is an ocd peer support specialist who helps people find ocd specialists near them or through telehealth. Her YouTube channel is called Chrissie Hodges and on her About Tab she has information to reach her. I hope this helps. ❤
- Date posted
- 5y
I have heard this and it puts my mind at ease to know. I have a bad habit of seeking reassurance for this kind of thing, especially after having to fight so hard to get properly diagnosed. Thank you so much for your response
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
You are being very brave!
- Date posted
- 5y
❤️ thank you
- Date posted
- 5y
A couple months ago I thought the same thing. I thought I was going insane and nothing could bring me out. No one understood. My therapist did thankfully but she wasn’t my psychiatrist. My psychiatrist would sit with me for 5 minutes and he’s a nice guy but he would just hand me different pills when I told him I was afraid. I think you really have to know your patient and fully understand what they are going through and it’s so so tough. I’m sorry you went through this. I’m glad you are not in her care anymore and realized that it’s not best for you. There is a woman on yourune names Ali greymond and she talks about all topics of ocd and has so many informative videos. Check them out if you can. There is hope ?
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you I will look into them, I’m sorry you also went through that, and I hope you’re in a much better place now!
- Date posted
- 5y
@Courtney I’m better, but not recovered. I hope we both find the strength to make it through this ?? you deserve the best when it comes to this topic! If you ever need anyone to talk to I’m here. :)
- Date posted
- 5y
Just wanted to say that I'm so sorry you had to go through that mismanagement and gaslighting from a healthcare professional, whether or not they were trying to help. I've had mental health professionals let me down, too, dismissing diagnoses I have and being quite blamey and unhelpful and dismissing my experiences rather than exploring them with me, including a therapist who kept telling me I must be asexual because I didn't always want sex with my ex boyfriend (leading him to dismiss my attempts to insist and repeatedly sexually assault me). God knows why she thought it was appropriate to focus on that and try to explore my sexuality when I'd just told her about a serious trauma I still have flashbacks about. Oy vey. Sometimes people just get it wrong. It's hurtful and scary when those people are in positions of trust or power over us. But don't give up. It's possible to find a therapist and psychiatric professional who you trust, who listen to you and your opinions about your experiences, and work with and compromise with your preferences rather than forcing any treatments on you.
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you for sharing, I’m sorry you had to go through that experience. I’ve definitely learned the importance of second opinions, and of making sure therapists are a good “fit” through this experience.
- Date posted
- 5y
I dealt with the same obsessions as my ocd bounces between sexually intrusive thoughts, orientation and eventually lead to horrible depersonalization which lead me to believe I was going psychotic . It got so bad I ended up in inpatient for over a week. I have bipolar run in my family so I can understand with the confusion of misdiagnoses and being put on antipsychotics. The biggest thing that helped me with it all...if you truly are going psychotic you wouldn’t be able to stop it...the depersonalization is due to anxiety...the anxiety is from The ocd...what is the true deep down root of your ocd?
- Date posted
- 5y
It’s disheartening to know you went through that, but encouraging to know I’m not alone. I was also hospitalized earlier this year. I am trying to practice acceptance of my thoughts and that the things I’m afraid of might be true, and that I can’t know for sure. But it’s so hard when it deals with such taboo subjects. I don’t know what the root is, this is all very new to me- fear of the unknown or loss of control and being a bad/dangerous person I guess
- Date posted
- 5y
@Courtney Trust me I know how hard this can be. Another thing that really helps me is basing all of my actions off my values...no matter what I’m feeling (which 90% of the time is scared because of my ocd ) I bring it with me and live my life based off my values...ask yourself what’s the worst thing that’s going to happen if you go psychotic? That’s what really helped me beat psychotic ocd thoughts.
- Date posted
- 5y
@kglic1 Thank you I will try this. I resume work Monday as a server in a restaurant and I’m so afraid of melting down in public, but I guess I’m more afraid of losing my job and letting OCD control my life. Seems like a good opportunity to get some practice in ?
- Date posted
- 5y
@Courtney I’m a personal trainer so I can relate on having to be in front of people. For me the root of it all has to do with self insecurities and caring so much about what people think of me. When it comes to the thoughts of going crazy in front of people..try to remember you can’t control what others think or feel about you. So just try to be yourself and bring these scared feelings with you, because you value work and you value that you need to make money to support yourself.
Related posts
- Date posted
- 20w
Hello, I unknowingly have lived with ROCD or OCD (not sure what one. I’m new to this). It has ruined so many amazing romantic and platonic relationships and I am so sad that just now I am finding out what the hell is wrong with me. Maybe life would be different if I have known. My OCD and anxiety is at an all time high (ATH) due to some horrible events that have happened in the recent months. I am at the point where paranoia has taken over my life now. I had my first panic attack a few weeks ago where I fainted. My anxiety attacks are so extreme I go thought cognitive distortion that has lasted days. My girlfriend of 3 years is my emotional guardian and she no long has the energy to be that and honestly it’s not her responsibility to be that. She is bi and wanted to have an open relationship and for someone who has OCD this has not been good for me. She also was assaulted in my own home by a good friend of ours when I was out of town but it’s not a clear situation because it sounded consensual at first. I just left my very high paying job. I am financially secure but the job was emotionally abusive and looking back made my OCD worse. I am taking some time off to get my head right…but now, all I have to do during the day is live in my OCD. I’m very happy I finally figured out why I act the way I do but I don’t know if I can get better quick enough to save my relationship. I have never been so worried about myself (M 28 years old). I am a confident young professional and never thought I would be writing on a page like this. Anyway…I hope it gets better.
- Date posted
- 11w
First off - I’m sorry, I post here a lot. My thoughts are going to be scattered because I have the adhd/ocd/executive dysfunction wombo combo. Im so embarrassed I am THIS neurodivergent. I swear my brain couldn’t pick one struggle and settle with it. I’m not making these diagnoses quirky personality traits by any means, in fact, in this post im venting about how exhausting and embarassed I am living with a brain like this on the daily. I need to hear someone’s advice please. I love hearing everyone’s advice on posts because it’s so useful, and brings me back down to reality. Everyone on here gives advice so tastefully in a way where it doesn’t feed into the self reassurance compulsion, but it’s also been thorough and constructive enough where it’s reminded me to ground myself in a healthy way. I love seeing others helping others, it soothes me. This community has been so kind, and I’m so happy I found it. I wish I could ask more, but I have so many questions I think it’d drive everyone here crazy lol. I am doing erp therapy now, and it’s been teaching me so many amazing techniques. I’ve been making progress. However, I sometimes have my moments of vunerablity. I’ve been experiencing this especially now more than ever because I am going through a breakup. He did it through text after nearly 9 months together. I’d do anything for him and love him through anything, and he broke my heart when I least expected it. I’d make his bed for him multiple times, but I haven’t done that for myself in years. I’d sit with him for hours to watch and do anything he likes, but he’d never do the same and I’d never do the same for me. I’m also at fault because I was too scared to speak up so I let a lot of disrespect slide. Why did my ocd do that? Why does ocd make me people please even when I don’t want to? Why does OCD make me care so much about things that will never effect me (like wanting validation from a random person on the street and hoping they’ll think I’m pretty enough to look at), but then when it comes to my future or positive wellbeing (like focusing on college/doing well in classes/personal hygiene/health), forces me to not care/neglect myself and those needs? I don’t understand it. Ocd makes me think everything’s a setup or a trap. I can never believe that I am fine right where I want to be. Why am I so hard on myself? Why do I even think this much? I care and feel so deeply but it becomes unhealthy so fast because ocd makes me fixate and I stay there for a while. For some reason I let this breakup define my self worth. I let it topple into the ocd fear that I will never make it in life - that I won’t be successful, I’ll never get the career I want, the love I want, or the life I want. My OCD’s version of “logic” isn’t even logical. Yes, I understand how the breakup means feelings of low self worth which will then topple into feeling bad about other things. But why has my brain been wired to think this way? Why does it seem so easy for everyone else to function normally with life but not me? Honestly this is the first time in my life where I’m dedicated to focusing on myself and learning more about myself instead of others in my life and it’s a very odd and bizarre feeling. I’m excited of course, but I’m also scared. My ocd makes me ruminate like “what if I will never make the most of this life I’ve been given”, “what if I truly have no worth and the most I will ever be in other people’s lives is a background character”, “why do I care if I’m a background character or not? I should feel guilty and ignorant for assuming everyone will automatically like me”, “are people lying to me when they call me pretty, smart or kind?”, “I need to look and sound perfect in both pictures, videos and in real life. I will never be satisfied for accepting who I am now”, and a bunch of other annoying questions. But sometimes it’s like I just can’t take the reality for what it is but at the same time, but I also acknowledge that I know this is ocd talking. This is so, so difficult. Do I make any sense with what I’m saying? Can anyone help?
- Date posted
- 7w
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond