I am crying write now as typing because I was always straight and never had a crush on a man I would wished I like to look like that so I can get all the girls or have bigger muscles I am 15 and then I was watching porn one time then stumbled to the idea that I may be aroused by the man this started my hocd then I had like groinal responses and I still do u had it for a month which is not long but it’s been bothering me then a few weeks later I thought popped in my mind I am girl which I know I am not because I love being a boy and being masculine then now I am scared I am non binary or turning because I stumbled into the idea there are more then two genders which is making everything feel real I know I am boy and I love being boy wearing boy clothes I love puberty and getting taller please help me I don’t wanna be non binary please someone I am crying help I don’t if I have ocd or not but these thoughts make me nervous even searching up non binary please help ???

tolandkm

Date posted: 5y

Aw you are breaking my heart. I understand what you are going through bc I have hocd accept im a female. It may seem awful now, but it will get better. I had one of my worst days today but as I just let the thoughts go through my head I know they are just thoughts, not feelings or facts or actions. Stay strong and cry it out if you need to. I’ve been there but you will get better.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

But now I have thoughts of being non binary or that I don’t identify as boy now I am tearing up I don’t wanna turn non binary I love being a boy

tolandkm

Date posted: 5y

I understand what you are going through because all of today I thought I was a lesbian and I felt a huge weight on my chest like it doesn’t feel like myself. I know that it seems rough now but just take some deep breaths and maybe write how you are feeling. It may help you recognize that these “feelings” are just thoughts. It will be okay

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@pure093 I wanna ask you a question can I thought suddenly change the gender you identify with

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@tolandkm Do u think it’s ocd because my brain is saying it’s not

tolandkm

Date posted: 5y

@Omar123 No it does not. Thoughts are just thoughts. Not actions or feelings or desires. Please do not try to look things up on the internet they do not help unless you are doing it for therapy. It will only make you feel worse. Take a break :)

tolandkm

Date posted: 5y

@tolandkm also I do not want to give reassurance just because it won’t make you feel better in the long run. All i can say is that your brain can be your worst enemy sometime and you just need to let the thoughts go in and out of your head and not think too much about it. I know it is so hard to do but I will say it does make a difference!!

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I feel like I am losing strands of my hair because of all these crying and my constantly beating

Andressa

Date posted: 5y

Hi. It's ok. Everything is fine. You just can't realize It right now. I believe you, you are straight, even though there would be no problem beeing gay. It's Just some thoughts, It doesnt define you, sweetheart.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I now fear being non binary

Andressa

Date posted: 5y

@Omar123 Yes. You're just afraid, so you'll keep thinking these type of things. Don't let It consume u. It'll go away, I promise. (:

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Hocd I know I am boy but sometimes I get like groinal responses even when I am thinking about nothing what’s that about and how can I get rid of groinal responses

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