figuringitallout
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figuringitalloutfiguringital...
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I think a lot of people experience that feeling but don’t label it as a crush. I think people with OCD look at it through a bad lense
Jack brown Jack brown
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I had that experience once i thought my cousin looked cute because she had a cute outfit my ocd was trying to tell me i had a crush on her which is ridiculous but thats what i thought for a second than the thought went away
Jack brown Jack brown
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@godfirst 12312345 I almost thought one time when my cousin was laying on me that she was my gf or something sexual eventually if u let the thought play oit it goes away.
figuringitalloutfiguringital...
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No there’s nothing wrong with that. You were just testing
Jack brown Jack brown
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Did u ever have something like this happen to you. I just think its a type of reasurance it sure did seem like reassurance because after i did the physical compulsio the previous thought went away
figuringitalloutfiguringital...
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@godfirst 12312345 I definitely did when I was working at my children’s camp. I can’t remember specifics but for sure
Jack brown Jack brown
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@figuringitallout Its crasy
BishoBisho
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I think I have emotional crush on kids, especially when they just get a new haircut and looks handsome, not sexually attracted tho, and I do not do anything bad to them I guess. All kids from both genders I just tickle them and play games with them and say that they are cute and complement their hair and clothes and feel some emotional crush sometimes but it is not like continuos heart bumping and blushing and all of that I do have such crushed on every good handsome looking character sometimes even if it was an anime (this was a few years ago when I was a teenager) so idk if it is relatable to what you feel My experience may not be normal for other people but I would say that it is normal for me as long as it is not strong or sexual so I hope that I am relatable to you?
Jack brown Jack brown
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Did you ever have reassurance like for me i thought i touched my brothers side in the wrong way when i was just holding him than i felt the need to do reassurance when i got home the need to touch is stomach for the anxiety to stop and to prove to my self i am not a pedo. For some reason if i did it again i wojld magically stop thinking about it. My later guess is that it was just reassurance instead of telling ur self u didnt do anything wrong and stuff i would act out the incident 2 sometimes. So i touched his stomache that had to touch his stomach again for reassurance i went up to him and slapped his stomach or hugged his stomach and asked him what are u guys upp too,is that normal?
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