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You’re NOT a burden. It gets difficult but you got this
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You have skills and talents that people without the disorder don’t have!
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Totally normal to feel guilt about this. Totally normal to feel shame and it’s very common that people feel they are a burden to the ones around them. Yes it’s likely depression, but OCD and depression is not a death sentence. Accepting that a part of your brain is broken is the first step. Stop trying to run away from who you are and start acting like the person you are which is likely a good one. We’re all on this site for a reason and it’s because we share common disfunction that not all have . Open up to your family, your friends! I know that sounds hard but the more you come out of the closet and open up to who you are then the more empowered you’ll feel . If you have people in your life that steer away or get afraid of your mental health then they are Hardly worth entertaining further relationships with and yes this includes family. I’ll bet the moment you take the loved ones in your life aside and open up you’ll see that it’s really not all that bad. I’ve opened up and pretty much told every family member I have OCD and a lot of my friends. The thing if it is when I really look around at almost everyone I know I see dis function all over the fucking place. Weather it’s alcohol problem , drugs , and honestly my whole family and all the people I seem to know have shit that they all hide and will not open up to in fear of judgement! It’s no ones fault that they have this and if you turn your inner focus outward and start focusing on the good things in your life then the anxiety, and stress of everything right now that you are internally holding onto will eventually start to fade. Medication that your taking I can only say that you can take a pill and a pill might work. It might ease the pain it might lighten the anxiety but while your on that pill if you don’t commit 100% to recovery from OCD and learn ERP CBT and how to exercise, read write and put forward your best self every single day then essentially when you decide to get off the pill then all your symptoms will return and stronger than ever. This is why we hear about people who are on and off pills and meds for years , because they take them till they feel better then get off them but while in them very few will ever do what it truly takes to get them selves better. Having ocd and anxiety believe it or not is also very much learning to live with pain. To live with not feeling well. To accept the bad days and the days of pure hell and all the fear that follows. Your 17 do something about it fast don’t wait till your 36 like me who tried to hide who I was and what I was feeling for the last 18 years. Good luck
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Thank you everyone for the input. I really appreciate it. @curtis I’ve been suspecting that I’m depressed for a while but I’m too afraid to open up about it to my psychiatrist and get screened. I feel as if once I get a diagnosis, it’s actually over, like for real. I don’t want to make my parents feel worse. I was diagnosed when I was freaking 12 but I feel as if the diagnosis only really sunk in now. Dunno. I’ll take your advice to heart though. I just want some semblance of normality.
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So i too have been depressed likely a good part of the last number of years too. Actually probably a lot longer . I have 2 kids 3 and 5. A wife of 8 years now and I’ve suffered from my mental illness for nearly two decades. Men very rarely open up because we’re supposed to be strong! There is so much shame associated with the stigma behind anxiety, ocd and depression. We never want to admit that we’re broken in some way. It’s a hard fucking pill to swallow and no matter how hard we try put it in the back burner it will surface stronger and stronger. This is where I say to admit. If you try hide how you feel especially to your psychiatrist then you’ll have no chance gaining ground with this. Do you feel that your parents are burdened with you because your depressed? Is this actually a fact or is this just how you feel. There’s a difference, because we’re all very quick to believe shit that isn’t even real especially if you have OCD !! If you can admit , accept and strategize on how your life can move forward in a way that suits your needs then your in your way. Remember it’s OK not to feel OK !! Let me know what type of OCD your struggling with , let me know some of your worst suck thoughts and I’ll top them I guarantee!! I’m not saying this to brag what I’m getting at is that at 36 I live a pretty normal life. There is not a day that goes by that I’m not hating my brain 75% of a 24 hour day but I still get by. I can refer you to some great information if I know what your biggest issues are. Trust yourself and try trust the people in your life. Gay people only truly feel relieved when they come out of the closet and I’m not gay but I can say that when I started I opening up about who I am and what my thoughts are to the closest people in my life all though it was so hard and still is it’s immediately worth it because of the sense of freedom you can get. Remember you cannot heal your mind until you accept your brain! And accept and embrace your daily emotions .
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I’m feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. I’m 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(we’re just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldn’t be able to return back at night, also it’s either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldn’t let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like I’m stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know it’s hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I’m a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So that’s it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress she’s carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk it’s hard (also I feel like I shouldn’t be saying this cause it’s all my fault) 🫤
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some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
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