ButterflyStar
- Date posted
- 5y
ButterflyStarButterflyStar
- Date posted
- 5y
Oh my I'm so glad you guys replied!! It HELPS that surely I'm not the only one!!! I always feel like I've done something wrong - like I've said negative words, that I've said it in the wrong tone, that I'm not being loving enough to my family or husband. Just like you said Scoggy, I will look for what I did and probably invent things. I never feel good enough. This has stemmed from my childhood with my intense people pleasing. It might have came from my mother who I felt I never was enough and she would tell me my feelings are pathetic and wrong. It's exhausting.. ❤️
urfriendfatimaurfriendfatima
- Date posted
- 5y
Even tho my mum always tells me that it's wrong and she loves me, I still have these feelings, and I don't know why or what mental process can get me over them. And I feel like saying this a lot her may have started to hurt her. Anyway, be good honey ❤️
FathomableFathomable
- Date posted
- 5y
Yeah. I always feel I must've done something wrong and if my brain can't think of something I did it'll invent something. And I've always had this about an ex, from feeling responsible for keeping him out of trouble (drug addict) and then for years feeling responsible for his wellbeing and that I'd betrayed him by leaving/giving up on him/talking about how badly he treated me etc. Always checking that he is ok ? It also made me into a controlling person who I didn't like when I was trying to get him into therapy because I knew it's what he needed and could prevent future partners going through the same thing as me. Responsibility OCD respects no boundaries, man. Ugh.
billnyebillnye
- Date posted
- 5y
Yes me
ButterflyStarButterflyStar
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you. What are some things that will daily go on for you? I could share mine
billnyebillnye
- Date posted
- 5y
@ButterflyStar Thinking about past events where I feel I acted immorally and obsessing over them. It ties in with an subtype of OCD I’m experiencing.. I’ll experience the OCD thoughts, urges or compulsions and then feel immoral having had the thoughts, urges or compulsions which leads to guilt.
FathomableFathomable
- Date posted
- 5y
@billnye Do either of you experience guilt whenever you're around other people that you've ever said or thought negative things about, those memories come up in your mind and you feel so guilty and want to confess them?
Delta Delta
- Date posted
- 5y
@Scoggy Yes! All the time. I feel like if I confess then I’ll be a good person but then I feel like a good person wouldn’t have done that to begin with. Judging myself harshly for past mistakes and refusing to allow myself forgiveness. Confessing feels like it’ll heal but it feels like a cop out as well because I don’t feel like I’m doing it for any reason besides trying to curb the feeling of being found to be terrible.
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond