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- ButterflyStar
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Oh my I'm so glad you guys replied!! It HELPS that surely I'm not the only one!!! I always feel like I've done something wrong - like I've said negative words, that I've said it in the wrong tone, that I'm not being loving enough to my family or husband. Just like you said Scoggy, I will look for what I did and probably invent things. I never feel good enough. This has stemmed from my childhood with my intense people pleasing. It might have came from my mother who I felt I never was enough and she would tell me my feelings are pathetic and wrong. It's exhausting.. ❤️
Even tho my mum always tells me that it's wrong and she loves me, I still have these feelings, and I don't know why or what mental process can get me over them. And I feel like saying this a lot her may have started to hurt her. Anyway, be good honey ❤️
Yeah. I always feel I must've done something wrong and if my brain can't think of something I did it'll invent something. And I've always had this about an ex, from feeling responsible for keeping him out of trouble (drug addict) and then for years feeling responsible for his wellbeing and that I'd betrayed him by leaving/giving up on him/talking about how badly he treated me etc. Always checking that he is ok ? It also made me into a controlling person who I didn't like when I was trying to get him into therapy because I knew it's what he needed and could prevent future partners going through the same thing as me. Responsibility OCD respects no boundaries, man. Ugh.
Yes me
Thank you. What are some things that will daily go on for you? I could share mine
@ButterflyStar Thinking about past events where I feel I acted immorally and obsessing over them. It ties in with an subtype of OCD I’m experiencing.. I’ll experience the OCD thoughts, urges or compulsions and then feel immoral having had the thoughts, urges or compulsions which leads to guilt.
@billnye Do either of you experience guilt whenever you're around other people that you've ever said or thought negative things about, those memories come up in your mind and you feel so guilty and want to confess them?
@Scoggy Yes! All the time. I feel like if I confess then I’ll be a good person but then I feel like a good person wouldn’t have done that to begin with. Judging myself harshly for past mistakes and refusing to allow myself forgiveness. Confessing feels like it’ll heal but it feels like a cop out as well because I don’t feel like I’m doing it for any reason besides trying to curb the feeling of being found to be terrible.
Does anyone elses OCD focus on ethical issues? And morals?
Is anyone dealing with responsibility OCD? I don’t see it talked about much, but it’s one of the subtypes I struggle with the most. I just feel like everything I do is in order to “protect” my family and friends. That means everything from magical thinking, to repeatedly calling people to make sure they’re ok, to bargaining with god to keep them safe (even though i’m not religious at all). I spend A LOT of my time worrying about other people and trying to control what they do. For example, I’ll try to talk someone out of taking a trip because I feel like something bad will happen, or I’ll stalk someone’s Instagram to make sure they’re posting regularly, because that means they’re ok. Logically I know I have no control over other people, but OCD tells me there’s always at least SOMETHING I can be doing to keep them from getting hurt or sick. And obviously the pandemic has made this 1000x worse. Can anyone relate?
Has anyone else OCD toward morality? I have an obsession with being morally right, doing the right thing, being a good person etc I have a notebook with a list about my morals -things that are morally wrong/right -words to avoid because they are wrong -things to do to do the right thing -moral missions how to change the world ... I check at the end of the day if I was morally right and write it down and hate myself if I failed I am hypercritical of myself and also about others When for example and artist does something that’s against my morals(and even if it is only on slur in a song) I delete all their songs, unfollow them, don’t listen to the music again I am very isolated because almost no one can be always morally right ;me neither but I can’t stop this. Is this even OCD or am I narcissistic or something like that. Or am I maybe a narcissist with OCD. I come from a narcissistic family system so I am scared that maybe I turn into one without noticing.
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