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- 4y ago
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- 4y ago
Oh my I'm so glad you guys replied!! It HELPS that surely I'm not the only one!!! I always feel like I've done something wrong - like I've said negative words, that I've said it in the wrong tone, that I'm not being loving enough to my family or husband. Just like you said Scoggy, I will look for what I did and probably invent things. I never feel good enough. This has stemmed from my childhood with my intense people pleasing. It might have came from my mother who I felt I never was enough and she would tell me my feelings are pathetic and wrong. It's exhausting.. ❤️
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- 4y ago
Even tho my mum always tells me that it's wrong and she loves me, I still have these feelings, and I don't know why or what mental process can get me over them. And I feel like saying this a lot her may have started to hurt her. Anyway, be good honey ❤️
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- 4y ago
Yeah. I always feel I must've done something wrong and if my brain can't think of something I did it'll invent something. And I've always had this about an ex, from feeling responsible for keeping him out of trouble (drug addict) and then for years feeling responsible for his wellbeing and that I'd betrayed him by leaving/giving up on him/talking about how badly he treated me etc. Always checking that he is ok ? It also made me into a controlling person who I didn't like when I was trying to get him into therapy because I knew it's what he needed and could prevent future partners going through the same thing as me. Responsibility OCD respects no boundaries, man. Ugh.
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- 4y ago
Yes me
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- 4y ago
Thank you. What are some things that will daily go on for you? I could share mine
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- 4y ago
@ButterflyStar Thinking about past events where I feel I acted immorally and obsessing over them. It ties in with an subtype of OCD I’m experiencing.. I’ll experience the OCD thoughts, urges or compulsions and then feel immoral having had the thoughts, urges or compulsions which leads to guilt.
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- 4y ago
@billnye Do either of you experience guilt whenever you're around other people that you've ever said or thought negative things about, those memories come up in your mind and you feel so guilty and want to confess them?
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- 4y ago
@Scoggy Yes! All the time. I feel like if I confess then I’ll be a good person but then I feel like a good person wouldn’t have done that to begin with. Judging myself harshly for past mistakes and refusing to allow myself forgiveness. Confessing feels like it’ll heal but it feels like a cop out as well because I don’t feel like I’m doing it for any reason besides trying to curb the feeling of being found to be terrible.
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- 13w ago
So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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- 11w ago
I don't really know if it's OCD, but lately I've been thinking a lot and in a very obsessive way that every single one of my actions, words or even thoughts will affect on how God will make decisions about my life. For example, if I lie to someone or yell at them out of anger, God will make happen something bad to me as a "punishment". I know it might seem silly, but it really really freaks me out sometimes... Does anyone feel the same? And if so, do you do something in particular to feel better? Thanks for your understanding❤️
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- Therapist
- Date posted
- 8w ago
When OCD latches onto your morals, it can make you question whether you're a good person, even over small things. Have you ever felt overwhelming guilt over something others would brush off?
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