Why do I feel so strongly about certain things and I think the people around me will understand and feel the same but they don’t. I end up feeling like I have overreacted but I still don’t understand why it doesn’t matter as much to them? I am working on saying things more calmly but they still don’t see what I see!

Are you comfortable sharing an example?

Examples- I got really upset over an LED light strip being on during the day and when it was brought to my attention that it barely uses electricity I pointed out the tv’s and gaming systems being used as well. Plus all the times I find lights on during the day. I then researched how many watts all of these things use and how much we are being charged per kw from our electric company. I had it all written down. I presented it and it didn’t go over like I thought. These items barely make a dent in our electricity a month but I felt so strongly about it, about making a point. I also research and/or write out every single detail. I tried disputing a charge from my home warranty company and after the 4th page I realized I wasn’t even halfway finished with my story as to why I was disputing this.. I made myself stop. I can recognize how irrelevant some things are but I don’t know how to stop and I don’t understand why my heartbeat and my voice raise, why I feel so strongly about minor things. I could go on and on with more examples..

I see. The examples helped me understand better. Do you feel like you're getting stuck in needing to be right? Or something different?

I really don’t think it’s a need to be right but maybe? I just get a surge of emotions over certain things and my brain wants to analyze it inside and out. I can’t quiet my brain unless I work it out on paper. Or unless I try to talk it out but both usually don’t end well and I end up feeling like I am crazy. Some topics also make my head spin and I start focusing on the “what if’s” and/or every little thing that has happened in the past that relates to the topic. Looking back on some of these examples makes me beat myself up inside and mad at myself for wasting so much time!

Another example: yesterday I made a new friend on Facebook, we sent a few mssgs back and forth then she stopped responding. After like 5 minutes my mind starts racing and trying to figure out what I did wrong and why she probably doesn’t like me as a friend. I had to refrain from sending a mssg saying well nice to meet you, etc in a sarcastic way. I made myself do something else to get away from Facebook. I checked back later and she responded, totally fine. We had a nice conversation. Later I found my brain making up other conversations that didn’t exist.. I don’t know anything about her yet- likes and dislikes- so my brain assumed for me! Then I feel like I don’t want to be her friend anymore because we don’t like the same things... but it’s not real! This isn’t the first time. Sometimes my brain plays out a conversation where I think I have found my best friend and we are exactly the same, meant to be! I obviously realize all of it is fake but I don’t know how to stop

I see. It's more like you're playing out every possible scenario, with a tendency towards the worst ones