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My therapist told me that liking lesbian porn and sexual experimentation doesnt mean you're gay. It is normal to do at that age. Trust me I'm struggling with the same thing and I'm so sick of it feeling like I like it. I cant ignore it and it is a constant battle with my brain.
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Your brain will always be able to come up with “evidence” that you aren’t who you think you are. This is mostly due to the fact that people are messy contradictions sometimes and OCD hates that. But here’s the thing: you can’t logic yourself into a different identity. No matter how much “sense” it can start to make after thinking about it so long, it still won’t be true. People don’t figure out their sexual orientation through a series of tests. They just are it. And there’s no undoing it.
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when i was young me and my friend showed eachother our vaginas under the table in school. we still joke about t today cus it generally is funny. i’m not trying to reassure you but the porn that you watch doesn’t define you’re sexual orientation. you know the amount of guys who watch gay porn (they’d never admit it) and the amount of girls who watch lesbian porn? it’s really normal. for example if you were to watch a gang bang, does that really mean that you want to do the same? it may but 9/10 you wouldn’t want that.
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@SteelersFan1998 Because sexuality is a spectrum.
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ok that’s you. you’ve never wanted to. but there is a good amount of straight guys who have. and you saying “claim to be straighter than i am” just completely invalidate their sexual orientation. like i said before, the porn you watch doesn’t dictate your sexual orientation. so you can be the straightest person and watch gay porn, or you can be the gayest person and only watch striaght porn. or you can,like me, be straight and watch what ever porn you want cus who cares.
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@SteelersFan1998 well, it’s always good to be mindful. remember this next time, cus it really doesn’t matter what you watch, we as humans are sexual beings and will get turned on by most things that are sexual, doesn’t mean we want to do it. i read this thing and it was about people who have to make court cases and they have to see videos of people getting raped and they experience some arousal but they feel in complete distress mentally
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Hello, this is literally my exact situation! I also experimented with my friends at a young age and we did quite inappropriate things but didn’t really understand what we were doing just knew it felt good. My brain bullies me for this and makes me feel extremely guilty and repulsed by the experience. You’re not alone and my HOCD loves to make me feel so so bad about and has manipulated it into something it wasn’t!
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Oh my goodness I can’t explain how much I relate to this, I think I might cry. I feel the exact same way! I have a boyfriend who loves me sooo much and I’ve only ever had crushes on boys but then all of a sudden my brain will be like “you’re absolutely gay and here’s why”
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I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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