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My therapist told me that liking lesbian porn and sexual experimentation doesnt mean you're gay. It is normal to do at that age. Trust me I'm struggling with the same thing and I'm so sick of it feeling like I like it. I cant ignore it and it is a constant battle with my brain.
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Your brain will always be able to come up with “evidence” that you aren’t who you think you are. This is mostly due to the fact that people are messy contradictions sometimes and OCD hates that. But here’s the thing: you can’t logic yourself into a different identity. No matter how much “sense” it can start to make after thinking about it so long, it still won’t be true. People don’t figure out their sexual orientation through a series of tests. They just are it. And there’s no undoing it.
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when i was young me and my friend showed eachother our vaginas under the table in school. we still joke about t today cus it generally is funny. i’m not trying to reassure you but the porn that you watch doesn’t define you’re sexual orientation. you know the amount of guys who watch gay porn (they’d never admit it) and the amount of girls who watch lesbian porn? it’s really normal. for example if you were to watch a gang bang, does that really mean that you want to do the same? it may but 9/10 you wouldn’t want that.
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@SteelersFan1998 Because sexuality is a spectrum.
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ok that’s you. you’ve never wanted to. but there is a good amount of straight guys who have. and you saying “claim to be straighter than i am” just completely invalidate their sexual orientation. like i said before, the porn you watch doesn’t dictate your sexual orientation. so you can be the straightest person and watch gay porn, or you can be the gayest person and only watch striaght porn. or you can,like me, be straight and watch what ever porn you want cus who cares.
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@SteelersFan1998 well, it’s always good to be mindful. remember this next time, cus it really doesn’t matter what you watch, we as humans are sexual beings and will get turned on by most things that are sexual, doesn’t mean we want to do it. i read this thing and it was about people who have to make court cases and they have to see videos of people getting raped and they experience some arousal but they feel in complete distress mentally
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Hello, this is literally my exact situation! I also experimented with my friends at a young age and we did quite inappropriate things but didn’t really understand what we were doing just knew it felt good. My brain bullies me for this and makes me feel extremely guilty and repulsed by the experience. You’re not alone and my HOCD loves to make me feel so so bad about and has manipulated it into something it wasn’t!
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Oh my goodness I can’t explain how much I relate to this, I think I might cry. I feel the exact same way! I have a boyfriend who loves me sooo much and I’ve only ever had crushes on boys but then all of a sudden my brain will be like “you’re absolutely gay and here’s why”
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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