kimtaeee
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SilverArmanSilverArman
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It can be hard but if you face and accept that you have those thoughts its gonna be better... I know its scary to think about but dont give up!!
SilverArmanSilverArman
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And now that you are not alone..
c444tmommyc444tmommy
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ugh yes feeling numb is the worst part for me. it’s like my brain can only process extreme happiness or extreme anxiety and if there’s anything in between that means somethings wrong
SilverArmanSilverArman
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I think we are going through a part of it that is called-not just right expriences- Give your self time and when you are ready do erp :) be strong.. even if you feel you cant be same as before fight for your feelings
kimtaeeekimtaeee
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@SilverArman i feel like it’s my brain trying to give it’s self a break due to all of this anxiety ugh i hate this
SilverArmanSilverArman
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@nicolettaa Thats true but sadly when u try to take a break you cant because you are still dealing with it and your brain is filled with thoughs.. rest until you think you are ready for fighting it and stand up when u can!!
kimtaeeekimtaeee
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@SilverArman i’m at the point where i don’t know what’s ocd and what isnt
SilverArmanSilverArman
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@nicolettaa I dont know how to help because im dealing with the same thing... Try to see yourself before the ocd awakend ... Hocd is a real thing... Gay people accept they are gay and live with it but us... We want to be straight so its ocd making our brain and throwing thoughts at it
kimtaeeekimtaeee
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@SilverArman thank you wishing you the best!!
SilverArmanSilverArman
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@nicolettaa Thanks but i give up.. there is no thrapyst in iran and u can get executed if you are gay because of religioun... I dont think im going to fight it.. i gaved my self 3 days to change my opinion and i requested help from some thrapyst but i dont think there is a way out of this..:) anyway thanks for talking with me it made me feel better
c444tmommyc444tmommy
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@SilverArman im so sorry to hear this :(( i hate how religion turns people in bigots because then people suffer. but i will say, there are therapists in america that do international teletherapy!! check out the IOCDF website. again, i’m so sorry u have to deal with this :( sending u lots of love
c444tmommyc444tmommy
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@nicolettaa yes!!! i feel like my mind is so fatigued and tired of fighting these thoughts
SilverArmanSilverArman
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@zoya Thanks for your support i really appreciate it!! Sadly im just a kid who is mad about what is happening to him:) i will go to the site for sure! Thanks for everything.. i mean its crazy how people help each other here... I hope u get through your ocd too!! Im gonna tell my family about everything today and if they hate me because of it.. im just going to end everything:)Thanks again for caring about a human being that you dont even know
c444tmommyc444tmommy
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@SilverArman of course!! ocd is such a painful thing and the stigma around it helps absolutely no one. just know that ur not alone. i come from a muslim family and so i understand the struggles of having parents that judge u because of their beliefs. just know that i’m in this with u!! don’t ever give up! you’ve survived all the days u thought u never could and that’s a huge deal!!! allow ur self to be proud of that!!
SilverArmanSilverArman
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@zoya Im really sorry for this request but can we chat somewhere? I think i really can ask some questions and talk about everything..
c444tmommyc444tmommy
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@SilverArman yes of course! my instagram is geniefactories and my twitter is ikeast4n
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