Is ocd suposed be so unbairable u get suicidal ideation do the thoughts go away or u just learn too deal with them I keep hearing ocd is mangble but how it’s misery?

Unfortunately I relate to this. Ocd is hell. And you deserve to get help for it. If you haven’t already I would speak to a doctor and discuss medication and ERP. Ocd has good and bad days as does any illness. You are not alone in the feeling of being suicidal from it, trust me. I would really really seek counseling and care for the suicidal thoughts. I think that you deserve to be here and I know how difficult it gets. I used to be suicidal. But things have gotten better, they can for you:)

The suicidal ideation DOES GO AWAY I promise!!! I had it very very bad for a few days but it always goes as fast as it comes.

Do u guys still deal with thoughts or do they go away I had same scary thought for a year now

Hi drew, after 30 years of suffering, I can tell you that the oldest themed obsessions almost disappear with time. Now they're just whispers, so to speak, in the dark and I am not bothered by them anymore. So they do go away but not on their own. You have to work hard in therapy to acheive freedom.

How long did it take too not let them bother you cause mine been while not much let up

It could take a few months of therapy with an exposure response prevention(ERP) treatment which isn't the easiest way but the most efficient one. You know, you can't control when or the content of your intrusives thoughts and this is true for ocd and normal people. The difference is the response to them. The problem is that you and me are attaching meaning to these intrusives thoughts where normal person would just find them weird and move on with their life. The response to anxiety triggering thoughts is the key to solve all ocd. Even after successfully treating ocd you could still have these intrusives thought but you won't be affected by them anymore. So you have to seek treatment, it won't disappear by itself and trust me I lost all my child and teenage years to ocd before seeking treatment. So for your own sake don't do what I did, don't wait to seek help.

There’s times when the thought dosent really bug me but than there’s times it really does and i have recently started doing ero and is trying too get me too accept uncertainty as a if the thought could be real and that’s really hard thinking that could be real it helps me more too tell myself it’s fake so it’s hard

Listen drew you have to rely on your senses. I don't know which theme ocd you have so I will use a neutral exemple. If you were unreasonably doubting that your front door is unlocked despite locking it 5 min ago. What you should do in that case is to check it ONCE. If when you use your hand to check the door knob, your senses are telling you it is lock then it's because it is. Your ocd would probably make you think that maybe the lock mechanism has loosened after checking it but this would just be the ocd talking. In short, your senses represents the REALITY and the rest it's your ocd in your head, fake stories and beliefs. It's not bad that you tell yourself that it's fake because it's really a part of the truth. But if you're telling yourself this over and over until the anxiety dissipate then you're just doing compulsions and that's the worse thing you can do. Another example,in my case I have hocd and for 10 years now. So when a intrusive picture or thought come into my mind, I don't listen to my anxiety and ocd telling me, hey you just had a thought about a man, this surely mean something or else you wouln't had it in the first place and you wouln't worrie about it if it was nothing and bla bla bla... Instead of listening to that crappy ocd I pause and ask myself ONCE, what my senses ( gut feelings) are telling me. Do I like it? No. Is it been the same answer for the last ten years?yes. So when I get hit hard by ocd, I use both, my senses then reminding myself about the fake nature of ocd. But if another intrusive thought come after 30 min, I'm not doing this again, I just remind me what happened half an hour ago. Lastly if it happen that you have pocd, rocd or hocd or anything related to sexual thoughts then you might want to watch Chrissie hodges on youtube. She has helped me alot through her videos, especially this one " Ocd bad-ass therapist jon hershfield". Lastly, sorry for the long post. I hope it helped you a little.

Thanks yeah i really just have 1 thought and it’s a weird one but it’s bothered me for a long time now

The fact that it's been with you for a long time doesn't mean anything about you except that you have ocd. Don't forget that thoughts are just thoughts, they are just a normal part of being human. So keep practicing Erp to reprogram the way your brain is reacting to your ocd thought, you are on the right path. Keep moving foward, don't let the thought bring you down. Example, if you had plans for the day or weekend don't let the thought stop you. You can't prevent the thought from happening but you are in FULL CONTROL over how you respond to it. So acknowledge the thought, it's there you can't prevent it anyway, acknowledge your feelings about it without judging yourself and move on with the things you were planning to do. By doing that, you will do ERP and you will signal to your brain that your ocd thought doesn't deserve your attention. If you keep pushing foward the thought will eventually vanish. So again keep moving foward, practice your Erp technic everyday and soon enough you will be way better. Take care.