Hi guys ! This is my first post , I suffer from Harm OCD , POCD, and currently ROCD, lately it’s been themed around harm , constantly feeling like I’m going to harm one of my family members or fiancé, which scares me to be around people because I get urges and it feels like I’m going to do something bad so I avoid people and objects, it’s horrible. Side note I’ve been feeling like my drive to be affectionate and make out with my fiancé is not something I want anymore. Sometimes I feel I want to be all over him and sometimes I’m just like not in the mood especially if he eats something bad. I overthink and nit pick everything in my head and it makes me think what if he’s not the one. I’ve never been treated this good in my past and always have been cheated on and he puts me on top of the world and puts be first and I constantly wonder if I’m attracted to him anymore and it’s causing me a great deal of anxiety, can anyone help? I’m brand new to NOCD

Zimmerkn

Date posted: 5y

Hello! I am sorry to hear that you are going through such a rough time. I hope I can help you feel a bit better. I suffered from Harm OCD for 13 years. Everyday was a constant battle with my brain. I still struggle with it from time to time, but my new subset is POCD. When I had harm OCD, I could not be around knives, or anything sharp, really. I also felt very uncomfortable spending the night with people for fear that I would hurt them in their sleep. This made dating impossible. The thing that will get you through this, is kissing your fiancé even when OCD tells you, you shouldn’t. Hug him/her when you feel anxious. Call your loved ones and talk to them about anything, just to get yourself out of your own OCD head. Push yourself to go out and be around people, even when it is hard. This is the only way to defeat it. Please let me know if you need to talk further. I first discovered I had harm OCD when I was 15, and I am now 30. I sought counseling for it at age 28. That subset feels much better now.

Sher

Date posted: 5y

Omg I feel so relieved to hear stories from others who go through what I have your story is inspiring and I can’t thank you enough

Zimmerkn

Date posted: 5y

No problem at all! Just reach out if you ever need any help! Also, a thing to remember is that OCD is only one part of your brain, even though it feels like it overtakes the whole thing sometimes. You still have your rational brain that can and will defeat OCD.

JOB7575

Date posted: 5y

I have harm ocd myself. It’s been challenging but trying to do more ERP and DBT stuff seems to help.

Sher

Date posted: 5y

Ugh it’s always worse at night I legit feel crazy , like I’m going to snap or do something bad and it makes me not want to be around people or have fun ):

Zimmerkn

Date posted: 5y

@Anonymous I felt the same way when I was in your situation. It was agonizing. I am not sure if you have tried setraline, but it really helped me over the hump. Medicine combined with therapy is ultimately what got me through. It took me so long to seek help because I was afraid to get on medication. My counselor also used reiki on me. That helped a lot too. Sometimes you just need to learn how to calm your brain down. Also, I follow a psychiatrist on tik tok and she recommended these 4 things to calm obsessive thinking: do 5 really fast jumping jacks, bite a lemon, think of an animal for each letter of the alphabet, or put ice cubes on your arms or face.

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