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- 5y
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 5y
Hey! I completely understand what you are feeling. I had an intrusive thought earlier that made me depressed, which brought on more thoughts. It is SO hard...but I think that the most fascinating part is that for most people (at least myself) I’ve had thoughts like this since a kid, and I’m still here. Some days are really good, but today was a not so good day. I was so exhausted from thinking that I had to lay in bed because I had no energy. About an hour later, I am feeling a bit better. I turned on Happy station by Pharrell Williams on Pandora. It’s easier to have more positive thoughts when things around you are more positive. Are you able to make an appt. with a therapist on here? I just scheduled one for tomorrow for the same reasons
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- 5y
Feel you so hard rn. Sometimes it just feels like ur literally going crazy and the only way to feel better is to give into OCD, but that just makes it worse. If u need someone to talk to I'm here for you
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- 5y
if you need to dm me feel free! we can exchange instagram usernames
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- 5y
You aren't alone, we are here for you
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- 5y
Thanks so much everyone ?. I feel so tired of chasing after recovery. I’m currently seeing an NOCD Therpist and she’s great, things have gotten so much better since getting treatment and the obsessions I originally came in with have now subsided or gone away but ocd keeps throwing new obsessions my way and I’m halfway through my therapy sessions but I had a spike this week and compusled today. I keep obsessing about a comment my bf made on his fb page and It keeps repeating in my head and i am so tired of starting arguments about it bc I know there isn’t anything I can do to know for sure what he really mean or feels. But I don’t even have a fb but I go on to his page to torture myself with it/ruminate and then I feel so angry after . I have severe jealousy ocd and it ruins my life
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- 23w
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
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- 21w
I don’t have much of a support system outside of my bf, so I find myself here a lot. I think I just need to vent, so forgive me if I do this too often. It helps to have a community of people who truly understand. I haven’t felt this debilitated by mental illness in months. There has to be some explanation, maybe it’s hormonal, because I feel like I’ve completely lost myself. The panic hits in waves, sudden and overwhelming, like my head is submerged in lava, burning and suffocating. Then, for a brief moment, I feel almost normal and wonder what all the fear was about. But it never lasts. The chaos always comes back. I even considered going to the ER because I’m not sure I can trust myself anymore. Something has to be wrong, because this isn’t me. My life isn’t perfect, but it’s not unbearable either. Since I withdrew from school, I’ve been so much less stressed that even my cycle, which has been irregular for years, has somehow regulated itself. But even with that, I feel like a failure. I was one semester away from finishing, so close, but OCD hit me harder than it ever has. It felt like drowning, gasping for air, reaching for something solid, only to be dragged under again and again. Now, I feel like that again, but worse. I feel hollow, like something is wrong with me at my core. I don’t just feel sad; I feel broken. I break down into uncontrollable sobs every few hours, and I don’t even know why. I just know that whatever is happening, OCD is taking full advantage of how vulnerable I feel. Is this what MDD feels like? Everyone tells me I have it, and it’s been confirmed by my psych, my pcp, and my therapist, but I still can’t seem to fully see it. I don’t know how to separate what’s OCD from what might be another disorder. I’m sorry to anyone also going through such a hard time, my heart goes out to you 🤍
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- Date posted
- 19w
I’ve been in an OCD loop for a month now and Im struggling so much alone, no one in my family get what Im going through and are just ignoring me, and I got no friends to tell Im stuck in this cycle and it feels like Im lonely in a dark place, Im writing this right now cuz u guys know the struggle, if it’s okay can u please leave a comment so I don’t feel alone in this, can u please share tips and advice so I can go through this, I feel like Im losing it
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