Can I talk to someone please? For some reason I've been having this thought and it comes only once in a while. I sometimes feel like I'm a boy deep down inside. I'm like 90% girly and 10% tomboyi-ish. I always get this feeling that I'm not supposed to be a girl. I think I have tocd but idk cause the thoughts come only once in a while and I don't obsess much but they distress me a little bit and I search up about transgenderism and genders. My brain is also telling me that I'll be happier as boy cause then my hocd will go away and I can be with boys (as a boy). I don't find the thoughts distressing me much but it's quite weird :(

The whole problem is that ive suddenly become doubtful of my gender identity. I feel like I'm happy being a boy or something. What should I actually do? I don't feel that much like a boy nor do I have the desire to be one

But my brain is saying I don't mind being a boy too which is true to some degree but I still don't want to be a boy

@sanzida? I can understand. It's just the stereotype in society. For example I am a very big tomboy, I always love jeans and t shirts and I never put on makeup of any sorts.. It doesn't mean anything. It's your lifestyle that's it. ?

@brokenstrong Um no I'm like super girly but I'm also a bit tomboyish cause I don't wear anything else except lipstick and frilly clothes lol. But my brain is telling me I'm supposed to be a feminine boy. How do I deal with this?

@sanzida? Don't worry.. It's just the effing OCD playing bad games ? Just think about it till it seems boring or completely divert yourself. You can keep writing to me whatever you feel.

@brokenstrong Awwd thank you so much for the support, I'm trying to be calm but then I keep wondering if I'd really like being a guy cause the thing is the idea doesn't distress me so much and I like to some degree. But then I also want to be a girl and very girly lol. OCD is so confusing. I never questioned my gender identity before this

@sanzida? It's depressing right? I'm also in the similar boat. My thing is whether I'm comfortable with being homo lol.

@brokenstrong I have homosexual ocd too and I now suddenly feel like I'm a demi girl for no reason lol ?

@sanzida? Today I just watched some hot women's pics for ERP and I feel attracted and perfectly normal ???? I'm feeling terrible. Wtf is wrong with me. Did I change into lesbian with a single thought ?

@brokenstrong Omg I have the same thoughts sis ???. Feel you, I think you got it recently right?

@brokenstrong I got it like a year ago but my hocd got f-ing severe like 9 months ago and I'm honestly losing grasp of reality. Idfk whats happening anymore :(

@sanzida? Yes sis ? recently. I was raped as a kid. And rejected by 3 guys I crushed on. The last guy was a close friend and we almost dated (though he kept saying just friends) and he almost "dumped" me. One day i was like "F it, I'm never loving guys again" And HOCD popped. ?

@sanzida? I completely feel you ?

@brokenstrong Omg sis!! I'm so sorry :(. God I only know what it's like to get molested but rape is so much worse. I'm so sorry you've gone through that! I'm also very sorry about the guys that rejected you (they belong to the streets). Also wanna talk more about hocd and what's bugging you? I'll be here to listen and if you'd like to be more privately we can also talk on insta lol. I'm actually in a hocd GC and it really helps like to let your thoughts and stuff out, it's been kind of helping me lately

@sanzida? Talk* not more lol. I'm very sorry :(

@brokenstrong Ohh okay sis I'm gonna DM you :)

@sanzida? So sweet of you ? I'll delete the above message?

@brokenstrong I sent you a DM I hope it's the correct account, your posts have lots of pretty flowers

@brokenstrong Okay then ☺️