- Username
- Vieira da $$$ilva
- Date posted
- 4y ago
i didn’t know cis-OCD was a thing and i think i’ve just realised that’s what i’m experiencing, omg. ik that ocd can have a lot of personalised themes that aren’t very wide-spread but it never clicked with me that i could have cis-OCD. i’m trans, and i convinced myself for the longest time that i had trans-OCD, yet it always confused me because people with tOCD were always scared that they were trans, yet i was always scared of being cis. for the longest time i didn’t think that i was actually transgender, and i was so scared that after ERP i’d find out that i was actually cis. so actually thank you for posting this oml. i’ve never actually come across someone who i related to in that sense.
Thank you so much for reaching out & saying this, for real. It really made me fucking happy - I was emotionally exhausted in the days after making this post, so I didn’t respond to anyone, but I want you to know that. Finding anyone else with cis OCD is so rare, and to have some role in helping someone realize they have cis OCD - I mean it’s an honor, really. We *need* to find each other. We need to write resources l, make it known in trans circles that this is a thing. One of the trans people I’ve met who told me about mental patterns that sounded *exactly* like OCD didn’t think of herself as having OCD at all. The official OCD treatment world hasn’t even transitioned out of typing all sexuality/gender OCD in terms of “homosexual OCD,” as though cis straight people are the only human beings in the universe.
@Vieira da $$$ilva???? I wish we could “friend” each other! I suppose they don’t want social cliques forming. But we’ll see each other around in the pure-O areas of the app. I’ll be happy to discuss how you’re doing whenever you see fit to post about it. :3
@Vieira da $$$ilva???? thank you so much for replying!!! like you said finding somebody with cis-ocd can be so rare and i’ve never found someone i relate to until now. i never even thought of the possiblity of me having cis-ocd before i saw this post because i’d never seen it anywhere. i think it definitely should be talked about more - for example if an article online mentions hocd, it could talk about the fear of being straight as well as lgbt. and ikr, i wish you could friend people lmao. the only other way i could would be like... insta or something lmao. thanks for reaching out, i’ll definitely be posting about it more
@cole Let’s both post about it more! Hell, I’ve thought of writing about it.
Hi ! I am suffering from this as well and it is really the worst form of OCD I dealt with ( I’m a straight cisgender woman ) . I hate waking up because my anxiety has destroyed my sex drive and when I wake up my OCD tells me I’m a man trapped in a woman’s body but I’ve always loved being a woman and I still do . ERP has helped me so my obsessions change atleast 20 times a day to try and convince me I hate being a woman . For anyone cis or trans etc our gender indentities define us so OCD attacks us . For me I just start allowing the thoughts and welcoming them and because of ERP allowing them makes me realize the absurdity of their existence. It’s horrible but there is light at the end of the tunnel for us OCD suffers ❤️
I had a major relapse this week as well, but my ERP techniques have been keeping me a little more grounded and hopeful for the future. I hope you're able to get through this attack soon. Stay strong and know that we're all here with you.
I'm a cisgendered female going through tocd and socd. Sometimes I'm scared that I'm actually a straight male, other times I feel like a gay woman. Both are extremely stressful. I'm sorry that you're struggling and I hope we can all get through this.
I’m a gay woman myself my cis OCD is often straight OCD too - telling me that because I’m attracted to women that makes me a straight man. Other times it’ll tell me that I’m a gay man, just effeminate rather than being a woman. Being in the discussion section on this app has helped by putting me into contact with people with gay & straight OCD, cis & trans OCD. Still, I wish I met other people with cis OCD more than occasionally - but it has helped. We *can* get through this, yeah. We will.
I have cis ocd too how to recover from it pls tell me
In my 24 years of living , out of nowhere I had the thought “what if I’m transgender” I tried to treat it as a silly thought , but then it kept popping up in my head and I started getting extremely anxious. OCD really is the tried and true doubting disorder , because what the actual fuck. I love being a man. I literally admire the male physique. I love being able to grow arm pit hair and not get judged. I do of course love women , and I am in touch with my emotions and I’m definitely feminine in a lot of ways , but I don’t want to change my gender. It’s just absurd. I really hate OCD #genderocd
Do any other trans people with OCD get intrusive thoughts about faking being trans or misgendering them? On a pretty much daily basis I go through this cycle of either accidentally misgendering myself or getting the thought of “you’ve been lying for the past 10 years and you’re actually not trans” and it always sends me into a spiral. My dysphoria tends to fluctuate and it gets worse when my dysphoria is lower than normal. Logically I know fluctuation is a thing that most trans people experience at some point but I still ruminate over it. Any other trans folks here experience something similar? If so, do you have tips to break that pattern of thought?
Hi guys :) I am 21 now, but at 14 I read an article about a woman discovering she wanted to become a man and not realizing it until later in life, which prompted the worst OCD I have ever had. I was paralyzed with anxiety and depression over the potential of becoming a man. I am a woman, I love being a woman, and I identify with being a woman through and through. I thought experiencing trans OCD was behind me, and recently (I just switched from Prozac to Lexapro; I have been on Prozac since I was 16, so maybe that’s a trigger?) it came back. I desperately want it to go away. I feel helpless. I just want someone to tell me it isn’t real, but I know that’s reassurance
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