Is this normal in pocd?? (23, F,) Like I was just watching a YouTube video and I got a recommendation of a 13 to girl coming out and I thoughr she was pretty and I immediately click the button to stop recommending the video because I felt "attracted" to her... I don't know how sexual attraction works but I felt so poorly because I know sexual attraction is wanting s-x with a person and I immediately asked myself that question and I know I'd never do but I didn't know if I wanted to. I don't want to have these feelings! I don't want to get involved with anyone, specially any minor. I don't! I don't want to! I want to cry because I feel like a p right now... And I want to die! I can't handle this pain anymore! This is too much to handle and I don't know what to do... I feel such an embarrassement to everyone... She's too young. She's a child... I want to cry so badly... Why did thishappened to me... no I can't live any longer. I'm not strong enough

erikaxo

Date posted: 5y

Please don’t say you want to die!! You deserve to live so much, and you are loved by so many people. These thoughts are ocd thoughts. If they weren’t, they probably wouldn’t bother you. I want you to know that you are not alone in this! If you wanna talk, please message me. I’ll always be here to talk. But please, don’t say you want to die. You are here for a reason. Don’t let your ocd define you. Sending love ❤️

myocdstory

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much... You made me cry... Thank you... I'm experiencing a lot of confusion and I'm afraid to actually be attracted to this girl..... I hate this... I truly do. I'm so afraid to be in denial because I don't want to accept these feelings... I don't want to accept them! I want to believe this is ocd but... I don't know at the same time... It's hell..

erikaxo

Date posted: 5y

@myocdstory Of course! I’ll always be here if you need a friend. If you are constantly worrying and checking, then it’s ocd. Our ocd likes to attach itself to things that are important to us. Pocd is a real thing, and your thoughts are simply ocd. If they weren’t, they probably wouldn’t bother. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Please remember how special you are ?

erikaxo

Date posted: 5y

@erikaxo Wouldn’t bother you* :)

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