Don’t flag I need to rant or I’ll scream. Its so unfair to have to TRY to LEARN to be normal, (and it’s not even guaranteed) when other people are LITERALLY FUCKING BORN NOT OBSESSING If my life never improves/goes wrong I don’t honestly see the point I think it’s a waste of time trying to force myself to be normal

Everything is dismissed as a compulsion by both ocd sufferers and non sufferers though just because they know I have ocd! Which then makes it hard to know what to dismiss and what not to dismiss because when you ask if it’s silly to worry or not because you can’t differentiate, no one will answer you meaning there’s no choice but to bottle it cuz what’s the fucking point

@uwotm8 Like if you can’t *quite* tell if it’s ocd or not and if you SHOULD dismiss it or SHOULD be cautious in the early stages of recovery but no fucker will answer you, how do you learn? I give up

@uwotm8 omg i totally feel you on that, not everything’s a compulsion and i wasn’t trying to make it sound like that! something that helped me was realizing that it’s part of ocd to obsess over whether something is OCD or not. that’s really complicated and sometimes it all just feels like too much to think about.

@uwotm8 it’s really hard and so exhausting. i’m still exhausted a lot of the time, but things do feel better eventually

@aabigaill No no I understand what you were saying!! I wasn’t referring to you I’m sorry! I meant like certain specific people on this app will pipe up and say nothing worth saying because they expect you to know it’s ocd automatically- well if I did I wouldn’t have a problem I was asking about in the first place! Makes me feel alienated and I just shut down and sink further into feeling low because I think “well clearly then I’m the only one who can’t tell if it’s ocd or not therefore I can’t afford to relax and I will never not think this way” It makes me want to die sometimes in all honesty because I can’t tell what’s what and NO ONE here will help by saying yeah you’re allowed to dismiss that as ocd - I just think it would help get the ball rolling. I can’t learn what’s ocd and what’s actual rational worry if no one will help me either way

@uwotm8 yeah, i totally feel that, i think people a lot of time don’t want to give reassurance and feel like they can’t say anything substantial bc of that. i def sometimes don’t know how to help without reassuring people. for intrusive thoughts the thing that’s helped me is that i wouldn’t be upset by thoughts if i agreed with them, like i would be fine with them if i wanted to think like that. i sometimes compare a worry that i know isn’t ocd with something that i think may be so that i know how to cope

@aabigaill I struggle with not knowing what’s really a threat and what isn’t. I don’t get like violent or homosexual intrusive thoughts etc, I also can’t trust my own memory so this is my problem. I have shut down at the moment and I hide it fairly well outwardly