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I have horrible false memory ocd about this same topic. Ive been suicidal please if you are suicidal seek medical attention. If you need to talk, my IG account is haleskale
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Thank you... I'm really sorry you're in the same situation...
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i’m sorry you’re going thru thissss :(((;
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Thank you! ;-;
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I’m not sure what the problem is? You don’t have to say but if you had some sextual thoughts, welcome to the world. It’s not a crime and there are no thought police:-)
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The problem is a kid going to my lap. I have pocd... So it's hell. I feel like a predator or a monster
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But you didn’t do anything to cause that feeling and even if you had a sexual thought, forgive yourself. Are you expecting to be an angel? I got news for you, you will never be the angel your ocd is trying to make you because no one is! It’s humanity, it’s evolution and not giving into ocd is part of the evolution for us ocder’s. Live with the feeling and it’ll come down knowing itself that it has no power on its own. Trust yourself a little!
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It's just not that... Besides having that false memory, I also have another false one where I touched her inappropriately... It's hell. I just... I'm haven't slept nor ate much... I even started writing my suicidal letters. I'm done. I can't live like this.
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See a doctor, please. Consider meds, this isn’t right. There’s a way to accept the “what if” and get past it because everyone needs to be forgiven so even if you “may” have touched her, ask your higher self for forgiveness. Intention can’t be overlooked, we all make minor mistakes. I’m sure you’re a good person by mere fact that you’re concerned, many others are not! And she wouldn’t want to see you suffer anyway. But again this is ocd pushing your imagination. Swallow your perfection and try to move on. No one is perfect...
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I don't deserve any forgiveness. I deserve to die...
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I was sitting down and my child wanted me tl hug her. She extended her arms. I leaned in and hugged her but my pocd freaks out says “dont brush up lr do anything inappropriate. Dont thrust my hips”. I leaned in and hugged her. I had these intrusive thoughts and worries. I hugged her still and i think i did compulsions to avoid these pocd and intrusive thoughts. I moved on and now im habing doubts and false memories on the details. I know as i hugged her i worried about brushing up or hips thrusting and i was anxious and uncomfortable. I known its ocd. I still hugged my child. Despite ocd discomfort. I thought i felt my body react like a hip thrust twitch or maybe its just in my head. I dont want to hip thrust. Thats why my mind was freaking out worrying about it when she asked for anhug. My therapist said my ocd and anxiety and these intrusive thiughts can cause my body to involuntarily react and do those things my ocd is obssessing over like hip thrusting or twitches or groinals down there.
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This situation just happened and I can definitely remember how it went but my brain is telling me otherwise and I know you guys said to sit with the uncertainty but what if the intrusive thought is so bad like disgusting, I can’t sit with that. Maybe it’s false memory but this just happened. I don’t even know how to live with this
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How do you know the difference :( I genuinely cannot keep living in this torment. it all started with an ‘intrusive thought’ where I had like a hazy flash of something reading an article. and I remember thinking ‘what if’ and ‘what is this’ and then that intrusive thought turned into me ‘remembering’ something else. which caused me panic. then I started trying to find evidence because it contradicted what I remembered this entire time. this was last year in like september. fast forward to march this year, it came back up- but this time stronger and with more ‘details’ and what nots. and I’ve been ruminating on it since then trying to remember and connect and It’s like I’ve added all of these details. but are they real? or is this just my OCD? I just feel like if it were real I would have never been able to keep it to myself. but also what if it was so traumatic that I blocked it out? because it all makes NO sense for me to do something like that. but it also fits what I was thinking at the time. idk
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