New pocd false memory I'm still obssessing over that day on the pool and I hope this is a false memory but I think my sister's friend sat on my lap on the pool and at that day I was having intrusive thoughts... This "memory" is so fuzzy and I'm so scared she sat on my lap... This was 3 years ago so I don't remember much of the event. I only remember giving her 2 piggyback rides that day. That is the only "physical" interaction we had. I can't sleep. I want to cry. My brain keeps shooting false memories everyday and I'm on a breaking point. I was almost 21 when this happened...

I have horrible false memory ocd about this same topic. Ive been suicidal please if you are suicidal seek medical attention. If you need to talk, my IG account is haleskale

i’m sorry you’re going thru thissss :(((;

I’m not sure what the problem is? You don’t have to say but if you had some sextual thoughts, welcome to the world. It’s not a crime and there are no thought police:-)

But you didn’t do anything to cause that feeling and even if you had a sexual thought, forgive yourself. Are you expecting to be an angel? I got news for you, you will never be the angel your ocd is trying to make you because no one is! It’s humanity, it’s evolution and not giving into ocd is part of the evolution for us ocder’s. Live with the feeling and it’ll come down knowing itself that it has no power on its own. Trust yourself a little!

See a doctor, please. Consider meds, this isn’t right. There’s a way to accept the “what if” and get past it because everyone needs to be forgiven so even if you “may” have touched her, ask your higher self for forgiveness. Intention can’t be overlooked, we all make minor mistakes. I’m sure you’re a good person by mere fact that you’re concerned, many others are not! And she wouldn’t want to see you suffer anyway. But again this is ocd pushing your imagination. Swallow your perfection and try to move on. No one is perfect...