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I have horrible false memory ocd about this same topic. Ive been suicidal please if you are suicidal seek medical attention. If you need to talk, my IG account is haleskale
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Thank you... I'm really sorry you're in the same situation...
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i’m sorry you’re going thru thissss :(((;
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Thank you! ;-;
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I’m not sure what the problem is? You don’t have to say but if you had some sextual thoughts, welcome to the world. It’s not a crime and there are no thought police:-)
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The problem is a kid going to my lap. I have pocd... So it's hell. I feel like a predator or a monster
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But you didn’t do anything to cause that feeling and even if you had a sexual thought, forgive yourself. Are you expecting to be an angel? I got news for you, you will never be the angel your ocd is trying to make you because no one is! It’s humanity, it’s evolution and not giving into ocd is part of the evolution for us ocder’s. Live with the feeling and it’ll come down knowing itself that it has no power on its own. Trust yourself a little!
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It's just not that... Besides having that false memory, I also have another false one where I touched her inappropriately... It's hell. I just... I'm haven't slept nor ate much... I even started writing my suicidal letters. I'm done. I can't live like this.
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See a doctor, please. Consider meds, this isn’t right. There’s a way to accept the “what if” and get past it because everyone needs to be forgiven so even if you “may” have touched her, ask your higher self for forgiveness. Intention can’t be overlooked, we all make minor mistakes. I’m sure you’re a good person by mere fact that you’re concerned, many others are not! And she wouldn’t want to see you suffer anyway. But again this is ocd pushing your imagination. Swallow your perfection and try to move on. No one is perfect...
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I don't deserve any forgiveness. I deserve to die...
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I’m reaching out for educational and self-awareness purposes, hoping to better understand something I’ve been mentally struggling with for several years. Around five years ago, I began having a deeply distressing memory involving the fear that I may have acted inappropriately toward my younger sister when I was around 13–14 years old. The details are vague, fragmented, and unclear—but ever since this thought first appeared, I’ve treated it as if it were a real event. I’ve carried immense guilt, fear, and anxiety for years, convinced that I must have done something horrible. Despite asking my sister (who remembers absolutely nothing, has never shown signs of discomfort, and has told me more than once that she would’ve spoken up if anything had happened), the doubt and guilt never went away. The memory feels real, yet there is no external confirmation, no direct recall, and no evidence beyond my own mental images and fear. I’ve also struggled with obsessive thoughts in other areas, such as health anxiety since childhood—frequent doctor visits, checking my pulse, obsessing over illness—and only recently learned about false memory OCD, which aligns with my experience. I’m not currently seeking therapy but would greatly appreciate your professional opinion from an educational perspective: Does this sound more like a real memory, or more likely a false memory created by OCD or anxiety-related mechanisms I am stuck between a normal person or a s*xual abuser
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Hello 😭, so uhm I’m kind of in the point of my POCD where I’m just tired. I just need to get it all out and get some sort of instruction of how to just idk live? So for me my childhood is pretty blurry. I have a few real event blended with false memory events there but other than that I’m a csa victim. And the way I tried to cope? By fetishising nyself, making CP of myself, seeing my life goal as being used, raped and a prostitue. Self destructive behaviour through talking to pedophiles and seeing my only worth as if I was sexually attractive. Which made me kind of numb to CP as a coping mechanism I guess. And heres’s where my main event of REOCD/false memory ocd comes in. I have a few events in my life when I’ve accidentally stumbled across CP ish mangas or just plan abuse and not had a big reaction. Some of them I even liked the story. And my ocd LOVES playing with it, making me truly believe I enjoy and get of from CP. I’ve also had quite a few dreams. A few days ago I had a dream about me getting triggered by something I did in the dream. Which I now can’t figure out if it actually was a dream. But also moments overall where I’ve unintentionally touched my private part while my siblings are in the room or when I found a guy 2 years younger than me pretty in 4th grade. Or a few of my only friends who turned out to be younger than me, and I had talked about sexual things (like fan fictions, my trauma ect) with them. AHSHB I absolutely hate ruminating and I’m tired so so so so so so tried 😭 idk help me? Please TT
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First I must say I love children and harming one sickens me. So if you don’t understand pocd please don’t commment. Ive only ever been drunk around children once at a house party , my ocd then convinced me I could’ve assaulted them the next morning as my memory was patchy…I haven’t let this go for YEARS. I didn’t even know what I did? 6 years later I have this whole story, based off an intrusive image I had but still don’t really know what I did? Every waking day of my life I’m trying to figure this out but I’m getting more and more confused. I’ve found clues, coincidences , things I believe could be evidence but isn’t really? I’m mixing in reality and false images….My therapists (I’ve had 3) all say this is false memory ocd? But mine feels different? Mine feels worse? Anyway I need a break.
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