I’m so tired of dealing with this everyday. I know we’re supposed to fight this but I just can’t i don’t want to die but at the same time I don’t want to go on living like this ocd has changed me for the worse I’m a horrible person now I can’t go a day without thinking I’m going to hell or thinking of harming myself because of guilt I know it won’t change anything but I feel like I deserve it. To me harming myself is a punishment for being a horrible person I hate these thoughts I hate being around my family while having terrible thoughts every action I do now equals doing something gross and I can’t tell if it’s true or not and to me not being certain and continuing doing that act means I’m actually doing it and it’s just skskmsmsks

God I’m so sorry to hear that :( Im not really okay rn either but I hope things get better for you asap !! no one deserves this

I’m soo sorry it will be okay we are all dealing with this together you are not alone.❤️

@peterateff Thank you

@Letsfighthis You are welcome we i’m here anytime you feel you want to talk.

@saltedcrabs The reason I think I was so upset yesterday is because I feel like I acted on it. I was doing something completely normal and a thought come into my head, usually I can let them pass but yesterday it beat me

@saltedcrabs I’ve also got the “I don’t have OCD maybe it’s just me” I hate when that happens

@Letsfighthis Omg!! same I struggle with stuff like that all the time, esp when I can’t pinpoint if the thought was mine or not and I continue with doing something

@Letsfighthis I’m sorry that happened it soo normal and okay that sometimes thoughts beats us it happens with me alot .. accept the fact that you are in a fight and you will win sometimes and loose the other time we all loose sometimes the important thing is to stand up again. I don’t know what specifically these kinds of thoughts but whatever it is accept the fact that it beats you one time you will beat the other times.

@Letsfighthis I’m really sorry you’re going through all of this though D: if you want to vent I’m here for you. Ocd sucks eggs

@Letsfighthis Oh that happens all of the time it’s the secondary fear for people have ocd it’s soo common just try to live with uncertainty ..weather it’s ocd or not you are human deserve love and life as much as anyone else.

Thank you! I’m grateful for your reply either way this means a lot to me, I know it’ll get better but I feel so disgusting right now

Thank you so much! I’m really thankful for your advice I’ll remember this, but it still bothers me because I did something while having a bad thought about one of my family members on purpose because in my mind since I figured that it was just a thought that its okay but I feel like I took it too far and that’s the reason why I feel so upset I feel sick even thinking about being around my family knowing I did that

@saltedcrabs It’s okay my friend whatever what you have done whatever it is it’s okay.the idea of you feeling disgusted and sorry it’s soo enough that you are a good person All the 7 billion people did disgusting horrible things that doesn’t means that they are bad people There is nothing that you can do that could separate you from your family

omg yes absolutely!! I’ll always be here for you too and everyone else but I just feel so terrible

thank you so much for this!! You’re absolutely right and I do still feel guilt and I know the ocd is part of it but I can’t help but feel horrible I still feel like hurting myself

@saltedcrabs I’m soo sorry I’m here for you anytime, just know that we all did disgusting things we all all did whatever you have done. You deserve good my friend it’s okay that you are hurting right now we all are ..please go easy on yourself I’m with you we will figure it all out.❤️

thank you!! I can’t express how much you talking to me rn means to me I just cried because I was so thankful, I might play a vide game in a second because I’m scared if I go to sleep I’ll have a nightmare