I need someone to calm me down. I was reading an article about a celebrity pedophile and the accusations against him by his daughter. When I read outloud to the person I was with, what his daughter said he did I got a really heavy groinal response. Different to any other that I've ever had. I want to die. I don't want to be a gay pedophile. Please help.

How can we help you to self regulate? Maybe you had a physical reaction to hearing something sexual and maybe it "means something", personally I'm actually into a kink known in Scandinavia as basically "Fritzl"- if you know that story then you can guess why. I literally used to read about it as a kind of brain-porn. I don't think that my kink has any bearing on who I am morally as a person or whether I think the actual situation is a good and moral idea, so if someone thought it did then alright that's their opinion but I don't have to take it seriously. No do I actually need to be a perfect person or be universally seen/judged as one in order to deserve to live. It's the compulsive judging and ruminating responses which make your scenario scary to you whatsoever. It doesn't matter whether it's OCD, I think people seem to get VERY caught up in trying to reassure eachother "groinal responses are OCD", when the truth is being turned on by sexual things happens to everyone, the only OCD part is the assumption that it's some kind of reflection on you, followed by ruminating about that idea. This "maybe this makes me a gay paedophile" idea is an idea, not a fact about reality and not something which particularly needs to be thought about or answered. If you live by your moral code of not molesting children, then this thing doesn't pose any issue. If you think objectively that the article describes a morally bad situation then THAT's a reflection on your "moral compass", which btw is a reflection of how your culture has socialised you, not some inherent magical quality about you. Sexual attractions never have any bearing on whether we find something moral or not, including for paedophiles, hence most of them don't act on their preferences. They're extremely different things. There is absolutely no need to follow your idea up with anything other than potentially curiosity about what kinks you might want to try out- and if they'd make you anxious due to your OCD, you have zero obligation to partake in them. There's no need to try to look for an answer to your anxiety or try to feel reassured that it isn't true. Do what you actually enjoy and feel relaxed about with your sexuality, and don't harm any kids. Simples. No other questions need to be answered, because the questions are honestly silly.

How do you usually handle groinal responses? Because I would try not to treat this one any differently. Also, do you think you’ll be able to keep yourself safe?

Hey your body is gonna react to whatever it decides to with or without your permission. The trick I guess is to stop assigning meaning to these responses and understand it’s out of your control