I'm only 12 years old I've been having suicidal thoughts for no apparent reason which I found very strange they won't leave me alone so I got this app hoping I'd get some help

i do and i know just how awful it feels but the more you’ll learn about ocd the more you’ll be able to change how you’re framing it in your head and you might start to realise that you are not your thoughts - that’s just ocd, mine is called brenda and she’s awful but i have to live with her and she’s taught me just how much i value my life and my family and my friends x

@cwllms I haven't tried therapy I haven't even told my parents I do think they will take me seriously to begin with I thought I was overreacting but I decided to get help when I started taking pain killers even though I wasn't sick i have always thought of over dosing so I take on or two each day hoping to put the thought to rest instead it got worse mentally and physically ?

@chichi 24 don’t feel the need to rush yourself but i would suggest telling them, although maybe so some more research yourself so you can present it in a way they might understand - i know mine were a struggle x

@cwllms I'll try I just hope they understand me but in the meantime I don't know what to do to spend less time thinking about it it's kinda annoying to wake up and the first thing that comes to mind is to throw myself out a window just trying to keep it together how did you cope with this before therapy?

@chichi 24 mine has never been urges, more so images of blood, rope, pills and such coming into my head and making me worry i could be suicidal - just seeing the word suicide makes me anxious and seeing celeb deaths and such a can send me into a spiral. honestly i’ve been a big proponent of mindfulness for ages and i have good solid friends. i also journal and track my mood but i am struggling in waiting for therapy. there is no one solution but you can overcome it x

honestly it’s no problem, you are strong, you can get through this

would you be okay with explaining slightly? i’m in no place to diagnose you with anything but this is a tricky one because too often doctors think your suicidal when you have ocd. (https://www.madeofmillions.com/ocd/suicidal-ocd) this link might help you differentiate too x

@cwllms i also know how tricky it is and especially at your age so i’m proud of you for seeking help even if its like this ❤️

that sounds like ocd, i hope you find some solace in this forum and if you check out the made of millions website there’s loads of information about different types of ocd that you might find useful. if you ever need anyone to talk to there’s loads of us here, all different ages x

@cwllms and yes the thoughts suck so much but you can find ways for them to get better i swear.

Really I have never heard of it thanks ? I'll definitely research

I did the research and it makes me feel better to know that it's a common thing but for some reason the thought keeps on repeating itself and that got me feeling very worried and uncomfortable can you relate?

@chichi 24 they do, they repeat themselves all the time and honestly some of the worst ones are the ones that you feel like smith should be able to deal with but they just keep hitting you x

aha you’ve got a lot of time to figure it out and honestly, struggling hurts but it makes you so much stronger and kinder. you have to learn to be compassionate to yourself with ocd x