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- chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
- Username
- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thank you don't know how much this means to me i really have hope for the better but at this point life feels kinda pointless if you know what I I mean
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
i do and i know just how awful it feels but the more you’ll learn about ocd the more you’ll be able to change how you’re framing it in your head and you might start to realise that you are not your thoughts - that’s just ocd, mine is called brenda and she’s awful but i have to live with her and she’s taught me just how much i value my life and my family and my friends x
- Username
- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@cwllms I haven't tried therapy I haven't even told my parents I do think they will take me seriously to begin with I thought I was overreacting but I decided to get help when I started taking pain killers even though I wasn't sick i have always thought of over dosing so I take on or two each day hoping to put the thought to rest instead it got worse mentally and physically ?
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@chichi 24 don’t feel the need to rush yourself but i would suggest telling them, although maybe so some more research yourself so you can present it in a way they might understand - i know mine were a struggle x
- Username
- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@cwllms I'll try I just hope they understand me but in the meantime I don't know what to do to spend less time thinking about it it's kinda annoying to wake up and the first thing that comes to mind is to throw myself out a window just trying to keep it together how did you cope with this before therapy?
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@chichi 24 mine has never been urges, more so images of blood, rope, pills and such coming into my head and making me worry i could be suicidal - just seeing the word suicide makes me anxious and seeing celeb deaths and such a can send me into a spiral. honestly i’ve been a big proponent of mindfulness for ages and i have good solid friends. i also journal and track my mood but i am struggling in waiting for therapy. there is no one solution but you can overcome it x
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- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thanks I really appreciate you taking the time to talk to me and I hope you over come it all but really thank you ❤️
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
honestly it’s no problem, you are strong, you can get through this
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
hey! i’m so sorry your feeling like this - the first thing i’d recommend you do is try and see if they feel intrusive - do they cause you anxiety and fear and distress or do you actually want them. if you find that you want them and you want to act on them i’d reccomend calling samaritans to talk through it or telling someone you trust because you are not alone and there is help. if it’s intrusive, welcome, i have suicidal ocd which is essentially my brain goes, what if you kill yourself, and i go, id rather not. it causes me intense anxiety and a little bit of depression but i’m working on finding a medication that lowers it until i can start therapy. whatever it is - you are not alone x
- Username
- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thank you so much for that? and I'm still new to it I do feel like acting on them but it scares me
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
would you be okay with explaining slightly? i’m in no place to diagnose you with anything but this is a tricky one because too often doctors think your suicidal when you have ocd. (https://www.madeofmillions.com/ocd/suicidal-ocd) this link might help you differentiate too x
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@cwllms i also know how tricky it is and especially at your age so i’m proud of you for seeking help even if its like this ❤️
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- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I hope I can explain it right it's like an urge to do things for no reason like jumping out my bedroom window or over dosing pain killers it was once sextual witch is kinda embarrassing to talk about I really don't know what to do about the thoughts I hate them
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
that sounds like ocd, i hope you find some solace in this forum and if you check out the made of millions website there’s loads of information about different types of ocd that you might find useful. if you ever need anyone to talk to there’s loads of us here, all different ages x
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@cwllms and yes the thoughts suck so much but you can find ways for them to get better i swear.
- Username
- EndthisEndthis
- Date posted
- 4y ago
There is something called The call of the void. It’s actually pretty common. The sudden urge to throw yourself off the edge of a building or swerve into on coming traffic. You should look it up and read a little about it. When I learned it was a real thing it made me feel a little better.
- Username
- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Really I have never heard of it thanks ? I'll definitely research
- Username
- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I did the research and it makes me feel better to know that it's a common thing but for some reason the thought keeps on repeating itself and that got me feeling very worried and uncomfortable can you relate?
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@chichi 24 they do, they repeat themselves all the time and honestly some of the worst ones are the ones that you feel like smith should be able to deal with but they just keep hitting you x
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- EndthisEndthis
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I can absolutely relate. I’ve been battling troubling thoughts for years. I understand how you feel. It helps if you think of these thoughts as something completely separate from your true self. It sounds stupid but “it’s not me it’s my ocd” is something i say to myself a lot. There’s also a famous quote “what you resist not only persists, but will grow in size”. Basically meaning that the more you try to push the thoughts away and the harder you try not to think them, the stronger they get. If you can accept them and label them as just thoughts and not you it’s easier to let them go. They are just thoughts they have no real power over you or your actions.
- Username
- chichi 24chichi 24
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Well it's good to know that I'm not the only one it makes me feel ALOT better u cant even imagine every one here is so NICE I hope I'll be like this when I grow up
- Username
- cwllmscwllms
- Date posted
- 4y ago
aha you’ve got a lot of time to figure it out and honestly, struggling hurts but it makes you so much stronger and kinder. you have to learn to be compassionate to yourself with ocd x
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- Matthew..22
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Am I suicidal or not
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- cows12465
- Date posted
- 49w ago
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Why do i get unwanted thoughts that i don’t ever want to act on but they eat me alive. like “you need to take more medicine” or “you want to hurt yourself” things like that. i never want to act on it or never have but ive had these for years and they will not go away. i get panic attacks from them and they are ruining my day to day life. i’m only 16 and feel like im taking on a hell of a weight.
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