kindly read hi, seems like a lot of you need to be reminded of this. to those who have HOCD and POCD, it's just your OCD, it's not you. i know it feels so real and you seem to like the intrusive thoughts, but it's really just your OCD. I know this sounds crazy, but don't stop the thoughts/feeling. easier said than done, but really needed. what i realized about OCD is mindfulness is very important. you can have thoughts that won't reflect who you really are. how about your false attractions/groinal responses? JUST LET THEM. it's caused by extreme anxiety, arousals aren't just caused by sexual attraction, ya know. you lost you attraction to the opposite sex? IT WILL COME BACK. whenever intrusive thoughts and mental images come into my mind again, i always remind myself this "yeah OCD, whatever. that won't change my identity." i know, mindfulness is easier than done. it requires lots of practice tbh. to able to sit with the thoughts and feelings without giving any meaning to them is hard. BUT YOU HAVE TO DO IT. i also highly encourage you to curse your OCD, like i do "FUCK YOU OCD. FCKING ASSHOLE" "screw you and your intrusive nature, OCD. i wont let you ruin me" YOU ARE NOT YOUR INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS. DOESN'T MATTER IF IT FEELS SO FCKING REAL. OCD IS A LIAR, IT DISTORTS WHAT YOU TRULY VALUE. SO STARTING TODAY, PUT YOU DAMN CHIN UP AND DON'T LET YOUR FEAR TAKE OVER YOU.

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

feeling confusion, feeling in denial and the feeling of losing your identity is normal. it's fucked up, but it really is part of the disorder

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Thank you for this. I am struggling from backdoor spike right now which really sucks. I have the thoughts but with no anxiety which scares me. I am determined to get over this hell of a disease. If you have any tips, please let me know. I just want to be boy crazy again

Lorelei

Date posted: 5y

i hope this article will help https://ocdla.com/doubt-denial-ocd-5342

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

@kamilia thank you for this!

Calli.Hoo

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much for this ♥️

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Can it feel like u honestly like the thoughts, like it feels like that atm

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

yup. and that is bc if your obsession to your concern

miss down ba...

Date posted: 5y

Tysm for this ???

Lorelei

Date posted: 5y

sometimes i feel like it's just who i am and i can't accept it so that's why i call it ocd just to run away from that fact.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Same here

Lorelei

Date posted: 5y

@frghtfdfh how do you deal with this ??

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

that's exactly OCD. that's the feeling of "what if i'm just in denial?" or "what if i'm just surpressing this?" really horrible when it feels that way. do you expose yourself to triggers? bc that's what i did. whenever i see a pic/vid that triggers my HOCD, i did not avoid it. i even stared at it. scary, right? on my first week of doing that it was really hell. but after staring and looking at the pics, you get used to them. i even told my OCD, "are u fucking satisfied now, you dipshit?" for an example, i was so afraid of hanging out with my female friends bc of triggers. the first 3 weeks was bloody hell, it was filled with false attraction, groinal response, mental images and tremendous anxiety. but as i exposed myself to them, my anxiety lessened. of course it wasn't easy. truth is, OCD comes and go.

Lorelei

Date posted: 5y

@thegazz thank you for your reply it's really helpful :")

Tyler11

Date posted: 5y

Thanks for this but like my identity is gone I don’t know what to do my mind is so clouded

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

been there. really felt like losing my identity and i was so confused. i can't remember exactly what i did. but im sure i exposed myself and got used myself to the trigger.

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