How many people suffer from false memories ? i completed my therapy through NOCD and I still get thoughts infact they have been coming in really intense lately but I feel my brain rewiring itself especially where false memories are concerned . I suffered bad TOCD and today false memories were intruding but they are not lasting long and my anxiety is spiking down alot . I had a big issue with false memories but my mind doesn’t try to argue with them much . My OCD is hanging by a string I think . I just wanns give support love and strength to everyone battling it . I’m still recovering but I am still here for everyone and I love this community.

「sickmindhuman」

Date posted: 5y

ı have sexual false memories like what if ı been raped in the past and ı don't remember but suddenly disgusting sexual images coming into my head with any men.Also,ı am muslim.

ShiningBright

Date posted: 5y

I had those thoughts as well and it was awful ? I also had thoughts I did bad things to people

「sickmindhuman」

Date posted: 5y

Yes ı have sexual false memories.I feel so bad and shameful.

ShiningBright

Date posted: 5y

I suffer from so many of them like I kissed girls or wanted to and thats not true

wildcat882

Date posted: 5y

Can I ask what the false memories are like? I don’t want to trigger anything but I’m not sure if I have a false memory or not and it’s ruining my life either way

ShiningBright

Date posted: 5y

It’s okay I’m not triggered at all . It’s difficult to explain but for me I suffer from TOCD and with OCD it looks for evidence . I was looking at old pictures of me with my hair pulled back but I had bangs and it looked like I had a haircut and the OCD told me I wore my hair like that to try and look like a boy and I was almost convinced it was true but I clearly remember always keeping bangs because when I was younger I was a Tomboy sort of against my will and I didn’t like it at all especially in terms of my hair and my clothing. Also I got false memories of hating my body but I may seem unusual but puberty was something I enjoyed as a young woman and I enjoyed being a young woman so much . I’m thankful I am stubborn or I don’t know where I would be .

wildcat882

Date posted: 5y

@Gotmyocdinachokehold Ah I see. I’m sorry you have to struggle with that. I’m not sure mine is a false memory then- it’s something that appeared 10 years later that I never remembered doing growing up, nor does my the person I may have hurt, but now I do and the images are just so unclear and there’s no story line. So it seems different. I’m glad you’ve worked to cope with yours though!

peachbud

Date posted: 5y

I have really similar false memories of hating puberty, even though I never did (sure, I was a little uncomfortable the first time I got my period, but only because I didn’t know what it was!) My mind tries to tell me that because I enjoyed being a tomboy when I was little, hung out with boys (because they liked the same things I did), and currently enjoy being a butch-ish lesbian, that means I’m a boy or non-binary. It’s really tough. Some days I don’t know what’s real and what isn’t, some days I do. Another interesting thing in my case, was that all instances of me questioning my pronouns/gender before were brought upon by other people. It never happened “organically”. The first time was when my cousin came out as trans and was explaining how he felt to me. I was in middle school then, and really looked up to him when he was presenting as female, so I would imagine I was a little confused. The second time I don’t remember exactly what triggered it but I was not in a good mental state. I was 13 or 14 then and very insecure about my weight. The most recent time was caused by my former best friend (who is actually a trans man) manipulating me on and off for around 3 years. I realized what he was doing in February of this year, and got so paranoid that I began to ask him if he thought I was trans. He said that he thought I was since I met him, and that he never believed me from the start when I told him I was a woman who liked other women. It was so scary and felt like my identity was ripped out from under me. I was 16 during that incident. I still don’t remember the events of the day I actually asked him if he thought I was a guy, or the weeks after. Every time I would bring up a point about me feeling female, he would shoot it down and immediately say that he had gone through that too and that I was lying to myself the whole time. I still don’t know what to think.

ShiningBright

Date posted: 5y

Hiii we spoke a few days ago !! So I wanna phrase this right cuz I don’t want it to seem like I’m trying to reassure you BUT in my experience especially after ERP I go by how I felt before these thoughts intruded and I had a happier life and I never had thoughts of being another gender in my life until my HOCD morphed into TOCD , I also realized the thoughts were so illogical and OCD isnt logical . Also from a common sense pov nobody can tell you who you are except you and it sounds like your friend was projecting and I’ve been there before as an OCD sufferer so I understand how you feel . That’s why I never told anyone outside of here about TOCD because I didn’t wanna get triggered with a brain that needs rewiring . People thought I was a lesbian because I never had a boyfriend or had sex and I almost thought that about myself but in my core I only desire men . We know our cores and it’s a truly dark place but I believe we will be fine ❤️❤️❤️❤️ we got this and no one can tell us who or what we are .

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