Hey everyone I’ve been doing a lot of erp work for sexual orientation HOCD and would be interested in getting in touch with people who are doing the same. Today I ramped up my exposures and had a pretty tough time. Just want to see if there are some people who’d wanna talk ab our experiences in a daily basis. Let me know !

Yeah I have but the sessions are comforting and you’ll learn to enjoy them. Personally the hard part is just mentally accepting that you really want to help yourself get better

@Jsem12 I do I really do I know I’m not in denial because if I was I wouldn’t download this app And why wouldn’t be having a hard time sleeping every day when I wouldn’t have panic attacks growing or sensation and hyperventilation so yeah I do want to get back to normal and become happier one more time

@luiscoro0218 That’s the mindset you need exactly. It does get tough but the results at least from what I’ve been experiencing are so worth it. I used to be the same way until I finally realized what I needed to do

@Jsem12 Thank you man I really appreciate the message it makes me feel a bit better the thing is whenever I feel good I know like an hour later it just pops up in my head or a few minutes you know but I’m doing the best I can trying to distract myself

@Jsem12 But right now all I get is a little anxiety not as much as before but mostly goosebumps and groin or sensation and it’s fucking annoying I get tingles that make me uncomfortable if you know what I mean

I don’t like feeling like that you know what I’m saying I wasn’t like that a month ago I wasn’t like that a year ago I wasn’t like that two years ago Nor three I wasn’t like that at all I was recuperating from my relationship with my ex girlfriend/fiancé but last week was one year from my break up at the same time a month ago is when HOCD started I got so paranoid so scared almost anything caused a trigger I deleted my dating apps and social media for that reason now everything just feels weird even saying certain things is weird and that makes me uncomfortable you still enjoy talking with my friends about girls now I just don’t know and I know that’s not me at the same time what the fuck is going on you know this sucks

And I know this doesn’t sound good at all but I couldn’t even enjoy my one night stand with some chick due to HOCD And I know I enjoy the moment at the same time I was trying to get over my ex girlfriend so I started reminiscing of my ex girlfriend got a little emotional and also I had nasty intrusive thoughts I just couldn’t concentrate any more shit I didn’t even last that long neither I just felt weird after that it was my first time doing something like that by the way I normally don’t do shit like that I respect women very much so that I like to get to know them first before doing anything like that but HOCD do you just caused that situation just for reassurance I did get aroused with her though I did enjoy the time in my mind I was fighting something else and I couldn’t concentrate again this sucks

@luiscoro0218 No I got u. This started for me after I broke up w my ex. I started seeing someone for a few months at college but it wasn’t what I needed and I had trouble getting aroused sometimes. I was trying to use the sex to reassure myself too but it doesn’t work I just have to let it happen naturally now

@Jsem12 Holy shit I thought I was the only one in that type of situation I have a little bit of relief now

@luiscoro0218 Yeah man I’m in the same boat. How old are u?