i need help, if ANYONE can give me guidance PLEADE. I NEED IT. im a minor, i cannot tell my parents about these intrusive thoughts im having, so i cant get a therapist, nor can u get a diagnosis. im scared i am a pedophile. i experienced a groinal feeling a couple days ago when i saw a picture of a little kid. I DID NOT REALIZE IT WAS A LITTLE KID AT FIRST, and i when i did i freaked out. i even unfollowed the acc i saw the child on. im so scared im a pedophile. i cant live like this. what if i am but im in denial? i cant do this. ive experienced something like this before so i think i might have OCD. i was constantly online looking for answers for the thought. i was constantly confessing the thoughts to my ex (the thoughts were about him) and im just terrified. AND THEN, MY BRAIN KEEPS ON SAYING “well if you are a pedo, its okay no one knows” BUT I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE THIS. I DONT WANNA THINK ALL THIS. i wanna be normal. i wanna be a care free teenager. This whole POCD thing started about a week ago, but the last two days ive been calmer and THATS been worrying me. im not worrying as much and it gives me so much anxiety. i keep on repeating to myself, “im not a pedophile, im not a pedophile”. what do i do? ive also been avoiding children and anything sexual because i dont want to look at then inappropriatly and feel anything. i dont want to see anything sexual because i dont want to think of any kids. it worries me when im not worrying. ALSO, i keep on getting groinal responses AT EVERYTHING. is that my anxiety?? ill even feel a tingle all day if im focused on it? does it have anything to do with actual attraction??? im just so scared. PLEASE GIVE ME GUIDANCE. anyone with OCD, does it sound like OCD? im just worried because im not panicking anymore. my brain is trying to tell me i am, but i cant be. i dont want to be a pedophile. im too young. ANY GUIDANCE IS APPRECIATED.

lovelylaurxo

Date posted: 5y

Hi! I also suffer from POCD. You are not alone. I have experienced a majority of what you are describing. My thoughts usually involve false memories with children close to me or in my family. The situations are real, but my OCD tries to tell me something is wrong or I have done something wrong. For example, I remember a situation where I was changing in my friends little sisters room while she wasn’t in there. But then she walked in to grab something and it’s like my brain tries to tell me I hurt her, or did something wrong. And then I spend so much time mentally reviewing the situation to try and figure out what I did wrong. It’s all very stressful and I’m sorry you have to deal with this :(

lilli

Date posted: 5y

im just stressed because im not sure if its OCD. like all this stuff is scary. i dont want to feel sexual towards a kid. theyre innocent. i feel disgusting. i avoid children because i get hyperaware of a groin response to where i actually get one. its so scary. i dont wanna live like this. does all that sound like POCD to you?

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

Tips for disclosing OCD to your family. https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/expert-opinionsdear-loved-one-i-have-ocd-tips-for-individuals-and-family-members-about-disclosing-your-ocd/

lilli

Date posted: 5y

also, my i keep on thinking like “what if im making this all up” “what if im a fraud”?? is that normal?

holley

Date posted: 5y

if you’re honestly questioning if you’re a pedo you aren’t! i can assure you pedos have known that they like children and aren’t shy about committing the vile acts they do. do you really want to harm a child? no. you don’t. case closed.

lilli

Date posted: 5y

but i feel like my brain keeps sayin “just give in” “its okay to be a pedo” but i dont wanna think like that yk? :(

holley

Date posted: 5y

@lilli of course! girl you aren’t.

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