What do I do? Tw:pocd, false memories, sexual assault I'm still stressing over this.... My false memory is that 3 years I touched (caressed?) a child down there while giving her lap (which is also a false memory on its own) on the pool with 2 witnesses (my friends) there.... If this had happened would she still liked me (because I know she did)? And she was 8-9 at the time so I think she'd be aware if I had done something this bad? Plus there were 2 witnesses there... But I have the stupid feeling that I somehow tried to what I did when they weren't looking. I even asked one of the witnesses if she remembers anything wrong that happened during the pool and she doesn't remember anything and said that I was always nice to everyone. I don't remember her reaction... And I don't remember this happening. But I do have images about it (that hopefully are false). I've been trying to not ruminate but I'm still so afraid I did something wrong...

if you had actually done that you would remember it 100% you wouldn’t be questioning whether it’s a real memory or not, i know how real false memories can feel and the more compulsions you do the more real they feel you have to stop doing the compulsions and asking for reassurance and do your best to not ruminate, eventually when you’re not in such a anxious state you will realize that this is something your OCD made up!

i totally i understand! i have a baby sister and most of my false memories revolve around her and they constantly morph which is just proof that they’re not real, if you would’ve done something wrong to your friends sister you would’ve definitely remembered it because you couldn’t possibly had done something that is so against your morals and then not remember it our brains don’t work that way you would remember it clearly. If you ask yourself what you had for dinner 3 years ago you probably don’t remember because it’s so insignificant but something as serious as sexual assault that is something that goes against your morals is not insignificant to you which means you would 100% remember it and there would be no doubts and no “what if’s” you would also remember worrying about it before and not just now , i understand how frightened you feel but there is no need to end your life over something your brain completely made up, you already have the answers you’re so desperately seeking, you didn’t do it. No matter what reasons, motives and scenarios your mind throws at you it will never be able to fully convince you that you actually did this because it started with a “what if” which means it’s 100% OCD. You have to be strong and not listen to what your OCD is telling you, it will keep giving u different scenarios and more “what if” thoughts will pop up but you have to do your best to just disregard them even though it’s really difficult and even though it feels real and urgent. Eventually they will lessen and you will realize that it was never real to begin with :)