hi everyone ? I’ve been dealing with POCD with false memory for about 3 months now and it’s been really difficult, right now there’s this memory that is really bothering me. About 2 months ago i was laying in my bed and having a really bad day with OCD and my sister who’s a toddler comes into my room and she climbs up in my bed and i was laying on my back. There’s this game me and my brother have played with her a few times where she sits on our backs while we’re on all fours and she jumps up and down like she’s riding a horse, she wanted to play the game with me and at first i didn’t want too cause i knew my brain would see it as something sexual but i thought no i’m gonna play it no matter what my brain tells me cause i love my sister and it’s good exposure and just f*ck OCD. While we played the game my brain kept telling me this is something sexual and what if you’re doing this cause you’re a pedo but i just ignored the thoughts and didn’t pay attention. Well today when i woke up the memory suddenly came back to me and now i’m questioning everything, is the game sexual? did i do something wrong to my sister? were my intentions sexual? do other siblings play this game or is it something i made up as an excuse to be inappropriate with my sister? am i pedo? etc. my anxiety is really high and i cant calm down cause my mind is telling me that i deserve to feel it if my intentions really were evil :( did i do something bad? do i deserve to feel this anxiet?