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Know that even if you're not actively suicidal you can still call the hotline or use their online chat feature. It might help you to hear a human voice right now. They may not "understand" your OCD but you don't have to tell them everything anyway.
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I've been through this when I was 17. I realised that fear was the trigger, the more I felt guilty, the more I felt bad and anxious, the more "feelings of arousal" were stuck deep into myself. It was really intensely awful, so I decided to fight it. Literally I mean each situation I was afraid about I face it. Easy to say once we're out of this but I suffered a lot from this and it was that that worked for me.
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Can you go into more detail about how you overcame this?
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There is help for you. Are you seeing a therapist or have access to therapy? Therapists who work with ocd will have worked with people with pocd before and will understand. Also when you want to self harm you can call hotlines, even if you aren’t actively suicidal.
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I do not have access to therapy. I am on my own in this.
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@ihatemyocd Sometimes hotlines have resources for mental health centers that are less expensive or covered by the government.
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Yes of course here are my tips. So, when I was younger I was afraid of being homosexual, then pedophilia (the higher step). I suffered intensely for like two years fighting against my thoughts, and the feeling of being attracted (the power of OCD, it's something!). Then I realise that, my fears did some tricks to me. I realised that the more I was afraid, the more I was certain to act badly toward someone in a sexual way (niece, little girl, little boy, nephew, cousins' daughters, etc, my mom or my aunt everybody it was unfair and horrible to think about, I thought about). Then I did realise I was always fighting for it and yet all my energy to get rid of it served nothing but increase the sensations. I decided then to upside-down my attacks. Each situation I was afraid about I face it. I was afraid to carry my cousin's daughter onto my lap ? "Let's do this! " Afraid of keeping my niece or nephew? "Got it!" Afraid of laying my hands onto the thighs of a child who wanted to sit upon me, by fear of feeling something ? "Done!" Each time I did it, it was a way to say to my fears to GO to HELL, and it worked really well and I knew it would work because my FEAR was the trigger. It was logical. The worst enemie is your fear, not your "arouses". If you were really aroused, you wouldn't be into this website.
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(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I honestly feel so overwhelmed by my thoughts—so overwhelmed that I honestly don’t care anymore. I feel like I’m accepting the fact that I’m a monster and have always been a monster. I broke down last night because of these thoughts but I wouldn’t tell anyone if they asked. It wouldn’t make sense to them. This morning, I was watching a body cam video and the person that was arrested was traumadumping about their past SA. I felt like I liked the thoughts and images I got from it. And instead of being disgusted, I let it happen. What does this mean? Does this mean that I’m a monster? Am I a just a monster in disguise?
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It’s like my brain is doing everything in its power to convince myself and also justify an attraction to teenagers. I hate myself. I don’t want to be this person, but what if I don’t have a choice. How do I get these thoughts out of my head permanently. I feel like my life will never be the same if they don’t leave forever. I can’t tell what is a real desire and what OCD is trying to convince me is a real desire. I can’t do this every day for the rest of my life. I don’t want to hurt anyone, or I don’t think I do but how do I even tell anymore. This might not even be OCD at this point, I can’t separate my thoughts from OCD thoughts I think because I’ve had OCD for so long so it all just feels like me. Maybe it is me. TMI but I haven’t pleasured myself in like a week because my libido is so low now, I don’t want to do it with these thoughts.
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